Hey all, ok so I have smoked cannabis for
about a year straight now, and have
tripped on mushrooms 4 times, and tried
lsd and I tried coke like 4 times. I am a
17 year old male, and I am happy to report
that I have completely stopped using these
drugs, and I have successfully got my life
back on track. I have a great job, car, I
am going to be a senior, girls, and the
love, and respect of my family. Lately I
have been having abnormal thoughs.
Sometimes I wonder if I am schizophrenic.
I can still act civilized around friends,
family, and I still like to have fun. I
admit, and have knowledge that I am a
hypochondriac, and I do have the
occasional anxiety. Sometimes I wonder if
I am just imagining my very life. I
always wonder that if I was a schizo, how
would I know it? Like I think that I am
imaging my life. Lol sometimes the
thought goes away and I laugh about it,
but sometimes I actually think that I am
imaging it all because of movies like
fight club, the secret window, and other
movies. Also I started thinking about
life, and how we got here, the universe,
and how trippy it all is. This seemed to
trigger some anxiety for me. I dont know
why but it just scares me to think about
how small we are,and how big the universe
is. Lol well that is pritty much what we
are. I keep good hygene, and I am
physically healthy. I just want
reasurance that im not crazy. I honestly
think that the drugs were a factor in this
sudden increase in paranoia. What do you
all think. I dont hallucinate, and I dont
hear sounds (except for when im about to
fall asleep but they are like funny sounds
in my head not like someone talking to me)
could I just be thinking about this too
much causing me to think like this? Plz
reply because this thought is killing me!
The sounds that I hear only happen if I am
thinking about it. What I mean by that is
that if I keep thinking that I am going to
hear the sounds then they show up. They
dont tell me to do anything, its just
seems like a bunch of random things being
said. Personally I think that its either
because I am very sleepy, or just
increased brain activity passing to a
dream state. If I stop thinking about it
then I dont hear them.
