I am a 35 y/o women, a professional in the
medical field, married for 10 yrs.
(happily) mother of 2 (3and6). I have
used marijuana for 15 yrs.
Daily not heavily, 1/4 bag last a
month.
I've really only not used during this time
when pregnant and nursing baby.
I don't smoke cig.S or drink alcohol. My
husband is the only one who knows about
it, he thinks its no big deal, because,
he has used much more and much worst in
the past.
Anyway, my thought process goes back and
forth like this.....
It's no big deal, I don't use that
much, I never use before or on the job,
i'm not hurting anyone, I can afford it,
I enjoy it, i'm not out running around
i'm home with my family.
Or
why do I do this, it's not healthy
for me, i'm forgettful because of it, i'm
emotionally dull because of it, i'm
disconnected when on it, i'm not being a
responsible mom. ( I never smoke in front
of my kids, I go to the garage, but, they
have said stuff like "you smell funny or
your eyes look like you've been crying")
when i've tried to quit, I am
obsessed about it until I finally
rationalize my way back to it with the
it's no big deal.....Etc.
I'm tired of the cycle here.
I feel like i'm too old for this....
But, still enjoy it sometimes.
I also feel like such a phony to all who
know me as all of the things that I am,
but would be shocked to know I use
marijuana daily.
I'm not sure if i'm asking for advice or
if I just wanted to put it out there.
Confused ,
labgirl
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lil_blaze2004
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Posted: 06-19-06 11:15am
I'm in the same boat as you but have been
told by my doc it's ok to use it because I
am high strung/anxiety-lol I too did not
smoke while preggo or breastfeeding and
have always thought of pot as an ok "drug"
as long as it does not take over your
life like some poeple I know (my ex, my
bestfriend). I never smoke when my son
is awake and I too have a high profile job
(i am an executive for a very well known
company). Pffffttt, I don't think there
is anything wrong with it in moderation
but if you are forgetting things and dull,
disconnected then it may not be the thing
for you to do. In all honestly it is up
to you.
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cosmicheidi
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 27 Jun 2006 Posts: 4 Location: connecticut
Posted: 06-27-06 13:02pm
This is my first post on this website.
I recently went through six weeks of
treatment for smoking pot, in addition to
other things.. Pot being my drug of
choice.
I think that it is a personal decision.
Some use it as a spirtual tool, some use
it as an escape. My suggestion is to ask
yourself why you use it. Is there
something about yourself that you feel
unsure about, and then it opens up when
you are high?
Your statements that it is beginning to
make you uncomfortable, dull, memory loss,
disconnected..These things are the major
side effects! For me, the lethargy is the
worst side effect. You say you want to be
a responsible mom.. I am sure that you
are this, but you want to do more.. You
feel that there is a way to improve.
As they say in aa.. The definition of
insanity is doing the same thing and
expecting different results.
If you are ready to quit, make a decision
and talk to someone about it. Other than
your husband and yourself. See a
temporary therapist, possibly. We need
people as mirrors for ourselves.. Good
luck.. Let us know how you are doing..
