Hi, a have read a few of the posts on here,and would love for anyone to be able to help me..Ok im a 23yr old guy and for the last 4yrs some thing has changed in me.Ok a dont think this is schizophrenia,but its sumthing? Ok a do have sum weird thoughts,but a dont see things or hear things.My problems are:i have severe headaches,and a heart murmer,i eat painkillers like sweets,when am out a cant talk to people,a find it really hard to make conversation,a cant look people in the eye for long,whats in my head never comes out how a mean it? A hate crowded places,a feel people are watching me,and that thay can read that there is sumthing wrong with me,a find myself thinking about what other people are thinking,a hate laughing infront of people cause it feels fake,a find it hard listening to people and understanding what they are saying,me short term memory is poor.My eyes always gets puffy and red when am around people? Whats that all about?? I also get really strong pulsating in my head..Its weird. A also have like a phobic experence which scares the hell out of me,from time to time a fell like am not here? Like everything is a dream or that am dead? A need to hold onto sumthing to stabalize me? Really freaky,also in open spaces a feel like the world could just drop and that a would just free fall..Again a need to hold onto sumthing? This might sound really weird but beleive me its so scary!! A just wish a could go back to the person a was,a only feel relaxed at home infront of the tv,does any1 no anything or heard anything like this,a would really love anyone that could help thank you