Word. People can be such b*tches. In
terms of people bullying me, it wasn't
really so bad this year. I just told
myself to not be so annoying to people.
However, it was still worse than I thought
when these punk kids told me they were
making fun of me in class while looking at
me. I had no idea. Made me feel so bad
about how I present myself. To be more
specific, I don't think there's really
anything wrong with my face, but the way I
present myself I guess, people must think
of me as some loser kid. I guess it was
because I wear the same clothes every week
(i'm not exactly poor. I just could find
anything I like), so people might have
thought of me as some bum. I also didn't
get a hair cut for a long time and my ugly
hair must have gotten in the way of people
noticing how handsome I can be. Pretty
stupid I know. I also talk with a stupid
voice (i mumble) and just don't know how
to talk to people in a more formal
manner.
But yeah, try not to think of yourself as
an ugly person. If you've got several hot
chick interested in you, something must be
right.
The only thing I can tell you is to
present yourself as more confident. Walk
with your head up and don't walk so fast.
Look around. When you sit down, lean back
and keep your legs open. Don't put your
bag or whatever so close to you.
Peace.
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Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Jun 2006 Posts: 60
Posted: 06-30-06 00:07am
I had a bully problem too, though I always
had a different approach then you see on
tv...I also try and start caca with them,
I always loved being an antagonist, I put
up with caca but I also dont like not
doing anything..Even if its something
small. Yep, ive been though it all
(except diseases...).
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Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Jun 2006 Posts: 60
Posted: 08-16-06 02:24am
So um, know for sure lost a slew of my
online friends I had. There is a really
good hacker friend I knew for 2 years, a
guy I know for a year and a half, some
others. Anyway they know about my
problems and at the time they wernt mean
or anything now they dont like me for no
reason so they tell me to kill myself and
start laughing, I wasn't pissed or
anything because why should I be? Then
they win....And I lose. Long story but
one of the guys involved (never a friend)
was involved with a situation the same as
this, but the other time a slew of friends
all ditched me after I helped them and he
was part of it, now I got new slew of
friends all gone and he is yet again in
this group aswell. It's a long story I
don't really wanna get into but man...I
never saw this coming, again. Reasons
like this is why I don't get help, things
never ever calm down even when people say
"things will get better soon", so I must
deserve everything I get so
whatever...I'll just keep taking this
stuff because I know for a fact I dont
deserve better or it would not always be
happening. Also, my sister is driving me
crazy....She is turning out exactly like
my hiv diseased mom..The constant lieing
and demanding you to get her stuff or she
trys to make you feel bad!!!
Ahhhhhh....Ohwell one day it will be all
over, untill then let's turn that happy
face into a sad face. :)
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johnR
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 20 May 2006 Posts: 229
Posted: 08-19-06 12:20pm
Good to see you posting a again down. I
really hope you try some of the advice
here whether it be antidepressants or cbt
or whatever. What have you got to lose?
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Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 11 Jun 2006 Posts: 60
Posted: 08-22-06 02:18am
I dont deserve help like i've said.
Anyway, figured something else thanks to
someone. I'm a "permanent" single..I
just gotta say to myself when I see chicks
that i'm ment to be single and that will
be it for that. I am depressed, yes!
I'm not nearly in the same situation as
the most messed up people but I know what
always happens. So much bad karma, why
do I deserve help? Hell I can't even
talk to people about my problems, i'm not
even close to being a "normal" person,
when I even try it's like "what are u
doing? Stop doing that...", chicks my
age they all are mommys! I just like to
rant at different times. I guess this
will be my last post here. Heres hoping
i'm dead in the next few years in my sleep
or something or maybe just maybe ill stop
being lazy and buy a gun. :)
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dead little me
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 Sep 2006 Posts: 40
Posted: 09-14-06 04:38am
I have considered suicide to, used to self
harm and can never confide in anyone. I
agree that counselloers are just people
who dont really care they dont uderstabd
and they are just doing it to get money.
Im sorry to hear about your family it
trully sadden me that you have had to go
through of that I cant even begin to
imagine what it is like.
You can find friends just dont give up
please??? Dont give up on life. There
are so many beautiul things out there and
some many people who have been feeling
like you.
You life is worth living. You have been
through a lot and are still here you are
being strong even if you dont feel it and
that is amazing because I would hav given
up a long time ago. Dont owrry about
living at home you need to find your feet
first me cousin who 26 still lives at
home.
Im not sure if asnything I have said can
help but there are always people here on
this site who want to help and make you
smile and have some one to talk to about
issues, like me for instance.
Xxxxx I hope you will be ok
