Hi, I have posted before, but this time, ive drank a little bourbon. Lol . [the truth serium]. I need to tell you a little about myself...I'm 18, will be 19 in aug., 2nd. I have impregnated a 24 year old woman, though she seems much younger than that. [about 19] she's spoiled to death by her family and I love her to death. She is totally strong willed and a hard-worker. Keep in mind our age difference -- she is wonderful, she would be a good mother, no doubt. She's ready, but I dont think I am...I know I could "tough it out", but I am young and trying to go to college, I also know that there is more to life than what is happening in my life now. I am depressed and cant conciouslly make my own desicions at this point. How I am able to tell you all of this -- I dont know!! [ I am on bourbon (liqour)]. I also have to tell you I have an iq of an 150, not that it matters really, but I see that I have alot of potential and that fact that I might be a daddy soon really startles me! I just need a little advice from those of you who are older and have experience, it wouls be greatly appreciated. I am sad, greatly sad, and I dont like feeling this way!! I really want to die or leave this country forever and forever. ::tears:: please help me!!!!!!! I sometimes want to take my oown life but I know that god up above would not like that very much. We are all equal in his eyes, no matter what our status is...
I want t his baby...I dont even know if she is preg. Yet. But I know there is more to life than what I even think. Please please help me!! I'm on the verge of something stupid.

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-fermin q. Please respond.,