Hello. I want to share my experience with abortion, which happened yesterday at 11am.
I have been dating my beau for about a year, and while it seems like a good time to have a child or what have you, well, neither of us are ready. Plain and simple. I know you may never be fully ready, but we are very far... Working to get by and not knowing what we are going to do with our lives...
I knew right away that I was pregnant. I usually sleep like a log, and I was waking up every night, couldnt sleep. My nipples were incredibly sore and I started having constant nausea through the day. I had to call out of work a couple of times and left early several days because it was so bad [and had to keep the pregnancy a secret at that], I couldnt imagine working for 8-9 months with symptoms like that, despite the possibility of them lifting.
2 friends were very supportive of abortion, saying it was over before they knew it and they recovered fine. 1 friend was very against it. I was fighting with my boyfriend quite a bit, wondering if we were ever going to be ready if not now....
So here it was, saturday, 8:30am, I got to the clinic and was surprised at how many people were there. A group of people looked like they had just left a party or something and were very boisterous. Lots of couples, a couple of parents, and some solitary girls like myself. There was all women who worked there, they all seemed so detached, they didnt really look at you, kind of just through you with tired eyes, that was one of the weirdest things....
The clinic seemed too small for the amount of patients that went through those doors, it was so hustle and bustle. The dr came in at 10am, the first man I saw working there. I sized him up, he seemed nice enough. The nurses took a blood sample and my temperature, and later counseled me and made sure I was firm in my decision and no one was pressuring me to have an abortion. They also talked to me about medication I was to take after the abortion and gave me 4 ibuprofens. I told the lady, "my, it sure is busy here today." to which she replied, "honey, this isnt busy!". Wow.
Finally, I was called into the room where I would have the procedure done. I undressed from the waste down, put a pad they provided in my underwear and put my clothes aside. The doctor and nurse came in, he gave me a very quick pelvic exam and shot me up with "the twighlight sedation" drug, whatever that was. I remember they had an entire conversation going on as they entered the room, barely acknowledging I was there about to have one of the most impactful experiences of my life. But I was out almost immediately, not before hallucinating a bit, which was kind of fun. Then, blackness.
The next thing I remember was saying "owwww, owwwwww, owwwwww
", I couldnt see anything, but they were working on me, "youre going to have to breath" the nurse said. "owwwww, owwwwww" is what I said back, and she told me to breathe again, and then I fell back out. The next thing I know, im dressed and someone is walking me to the recoop room, which consisted of a black room and some uncomfortable chairs. Everything was choppy, I couldnt walk on my own, I was trying to pass back out, and then I saw my ride out the door, someone helped me walk into the car and I practically fell into it, god I was so messed up. The person who picked me up later told me that she saw all the girls come out of there as messed up looking as I was, all over the place and such....
I fell out of the car when we got home and started ralphing on the carport. I crawled into my house and fell onto the floor. My friend helped me into bed and I slept for a couple of hours. Then a couple more, then a couple more.... I have only slight pain, am taking antibiotics to reduce risk of infection and some pills to help control the bleeding and some small time pain pills. It hurt to sit in some chairs initially, but I put a pillow down to help with that. Im bleeding minimally, but keep a pad in at all times. My symptoms of pregnancy, mainly the nausea, is going down considerably. Only until about an hour ago I was emotionally chipper and fine. Then I started recalling everything about the experience.
It was not -that- horrible of an experience, it couldve been worse. But it couldve been a hell of alot better. I literally felt like an animal being herded through those doors, there was no warmth, no caring, just a bunch of desperate girls and a bunch of overworked women. The abortion procedure itself takes minutes and once the dr comes in, its a wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am operation [atleast where I went]. Just a little extra warmth wouldve carried me a long way I think. I read about a little room they give you a blanket and let you take a nap to regroup and get your senses back, that sounds like a really damn important thing to have. Its going to be the little things that make this experience not so traumatic [and good doctors and nurses, too!!] on your pysche, so do your research. I have a feeling that alot of abortion clinics are like this, that is overworked and rushed. Make sure its a really good clinic if you are considering this. Make sure you have someone to talk to and take care of you afterwards, too.
Take care and with many blessings....
