Having a Hard Time Understanding (kind of Long) Posted: 06-04-06 07:43am
I really am having a hard time
understanding what life is like from a
bipolars point of view.
Sure all the educational psycgology books
will tell you their tendencies and what is
involved in it. Also how your brain
reacts and slows down during depression.
But, my question is.. What really is it
like to go through the diff. Stages of
depression?
Also if you are bipolar and you have
people that are way close to you.. And
you begin to go through a stage of
depression.. What do those people mean to
you at that point in time? And when you
come out of the depression why sometimes
are you no longer intrested in even making
contact anymore with some of the most
amazing people that you shut out?
Also what should people from my stance who
are willing to be an amazing friend to
someone like that do?
How do I react in a way that would not set
my friend off when they are blocking me
out, but still show that I care?
Loaded questions I know.. I dont expect
anyone to answer all of them.. Maybe a
few..
But I really am totally curious and
willing to take on a risk and a lot of
hard work for someone in which I care
about. I know the dissorder is harsh and
can pull you down.. But, you cant push
someone out of your life just because they
have a dissorder.. If anything they need
someone to be there for them that
understands them..
And thats what I want to do.. Is better
understand. Especially from people who
have much experience and much more
knowledge on this subject.
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Bucourt127
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Jun 2006 Posts: 2 Location: North Carolina
Posted: 06-18-06 08:19am
This is my first post..
Here is a post from my journal on myspace
about how it was to go with out meds for a
week. (take note that I usually dont
swear)
"i'm all messed up. I slept for 12 hours
and couldnt wake up until alex came home
and told me my meds were downstairs.
Unfortunately not all of them..I think im
going to have switch doctors, because this
is getting rediculous.
When I got up I felt dizzy as medical
question, had a huge headache, and my eyes
hurt in the light. It's like I had a
killer hangover.
Not to mention my emotions are raging all
over the place.. One minute I cant stop
laughing next im crying and feel like a
helpless child. I hate that alex has to
see me this way and take care of me. But
I know that im lucky hes mine because I
dont think many others would be so
understanding.
My senses are ultrasensitive..Which is why
my eyes hurt. Every touch makes me jump
and everything tastes weird(food). I
couldnt even have alex the way I wanted,
because it was too intense. Which sucks
because im all amped off meds.
Being quiet and pissed is the only way I
can control my emotions.
I hate this."
people that are close to you: you still
love them. You want to be around them,
but sometimes (depending if your manic or
depressed) they bug the hell out of you or
you dont want them to see you so messed
up. I apologize like crazy everytime I
come to my senses and realize I hurt
someones feelings. Some people are to
embarressed or think you wont forgive
them. Maybe they secretly think that you
shouldnt forgive them.
A good friend should be patient and know
that most of us don't mean to hurt others
and dont like to. Listen to us, try to
get us to do something active to get out
of our funk or do something relaxing to
calm us down. I know that when i'm not
feeling right, the last thing I want is to
be alone. It makes me more depressed.
I need someone who wont judge me and will
be my rock while I try to control my
swings.
Try letting them know that you need them
as a friend, and being around them makes
you happy. Let them know, that you know,
they dont mean everything they say and you
wont let it hurt you.
