|well, my plans to go and see the doctor today have to be put on hold as my daughter is off school and i'm the only one available to look after her.
Even now, after making the decision to go and speak to someone I can still hear the voice that says "it's nothing... You'll get over it... Time is a good healer...". But I will go to the doctor as soon as I can... Promise!
Whilst I have people close to me i'm not ready to talk to anyone about this, I know that a problem shared is a problem halved but at present I kinda feel like I have to get a handle on it before i'm ready to open up.
I really want to talk to my wife about this, but something is holding me back (probably the aftermath of 2003) , but I know that I will eventually have to broach the subject, so I guess i'll just have to pluck up the courage and have a heart to heart with her.
(i'm 32 by the way!)
well, i've been to see my doc', who was most understanding i'm glad to say. He has given me the name of a local pharmacist who is familiar with the taking of st john's wort and has arranged for me to speak to a counseler, so a positive step has been taken.
I managed to have a talk with my wife, who has also been very understanding and obviously glad that I have opened up and told her about where I am at present. Within myself is still something of a roller coaster, getting on with the day to day business but still feeling empty and kinda numb most of the time. My sense of self worth is still present (i think that is too deeply ingrained to leave me), I guess I just have to accept that it's going to take a little longer to bounce back this time...
|i think that while most people suffer from depression at one time or another, it is very diefferent for eveyone.
I just have a huge problem with medicating depression. If it is a chronic issue, then by all means, get something to help. But if you are just going through a tough spot in an otherwise happy exsistance there are things other than meds to help. Excercise, write in a journal, talk to someone, take a class, find an interesting hobby. I think that most people just need some space and time to relax and unwind. I am a big fan of writing, but that is just what works for me.
I don't mean to sound critical of meds, but it seems like everyone is on them these days........I just don't think they are the only answer.
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