Please dont laugh
eversince I can remember I have had compultions to do little type rituals all around the number 2.
I have to do things twice, I turn lights on off on so I have turned it on twice and off on off so I have turned it off twice. I swallow in multiples of two, and count things so that they end on a two ie 1 2 1 2 1 2 not 1 2 3 4
i also dont like to blink at other people, so if I am conciouse of blinking I look at the wall or the ski etc and I have to dot at the end of every letter when im hand writting ie everything has to have an end.
I know it all sounds stupid and I know that the world wont end if I dont do it but I cant help it, but I just cant relax until I have. I feel like something horrid will happen even though really I guess I know it wont.
I know I sound like a freak, but I dont look stupid running around doing things twice. I have lived like this for years and I havce found ways of doing my compultions without them effecting everyone, even sometimes without people noticing.
I just dont want to get worse or be like this forever, please can anyone advize me? Is this ocd? Or could it be anything els? What can I do to stop?
Please help