I really don't know where to start, and I shouldn't be taking this as hard as I am after he left me a week and a half ago. But my husband died last night. He was in a car accident and died on the opperating table from internal bleeding. They couldn't find out where it was coming from. At this point I don't know yet were it was coming from. They will let me know soon.
I don't know what I am going to do without him. I came to work to get some paperwork form some days off....And I thought i'd let you guys know why I won't be posting for a few days/weeks.
I missed him already when he left, but now it's much worse because I know I will never see him again.
I have to go now. I have my mother in law and his family coming down today and I have to get the arrangements started. He will be buried in ky with his family....So they will take him back with them. I don't know if I can let him go like that though. Those were his wishes and I have known that since I married him.....But I really have to go....Just say a little prayer for me and his family.
I thank you all for your prayers and kind words. I made it through the weekend and holiday. I really don't know how but because there wasn't really time to think I just kept going and going. It's been hard.....But I am back at work because I really can't sit and dwell on the loss of my husband. You know? I think that it will harm my little amelia more if I sit home and dwell and mood over it. It's bad enough that I can't sleep or keep food down, if I get anymore depressed my doctor said that I could go into labor, (went and saw her on friday) and I can't handle loosing my skoot too.