I have suffered with depression off and on for years.

For a full year I was free - I felt great was happy.

The past month i've been back to this horrible horrible place I am on an anti-depressant (cipralex) have been for a long time.

But it is back with a vengence, my huband works from 6am - 4pm, I have 2 boys aged 3 and 6.

I have no energy - i've changed my diet ( eating more healthy ) but most of the time I don't want to eat. Everything is a struggle, house work, shopping, my kids - I hate to say that but it's really tough.

My husband is supportive as he can be, I hate when he comes home and i've done no housework, i'm embarressed and ashamed, most of my energy goes into looking after the lads.

I'm so scared

we moved to a new country seven months ago, and the medical system here isn't great, I went to the local g.P. Once to try to get help, but before I could speak he got angry with me because my 3 year old son was running around his office - so there I was trying to control my son and just about to open up to the doc, and he said "can't you control him", I just burst into tears and got out of there as fast as I could.

So I am now afraid to go back to the doc - I have to bring my son with me, I don't know or trust anyone enough to mind him for me.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated
best to all
vikki