Hi,
yes I would say the same this sever
depression, and you have every right to
be. It sounds like you have had a very
hard life. And losing your friend that
had to be terrible too.
I don't blame you for being defensive when
people try to help. I have alittle
advice, I used to feel like you do and I
used to cut myself it felt like a release
of the pain I felt. I felt like no one
understood me. I started writting
poetry. Some days I didn't write at all,
but somedays when I felt like I didn't
won't to live life anymore I would start
writting the way I felt. I still have
this notebook I have had if for about 4 or
5 years now. Writting can help.
Have you ever talked to a doctor about how
you feel? Because they could prescribe
you something for depression, I have been
on several different types of depression
medication. And some have helped and
some haven't. But I am sure if you told
your doctor how you felt they would try to
help you. Remember you are never alone.
I used feel exactly like you are
discribing yourself. I was never
molested. I lost my mother at the age of
9 and she was the only person I had ever
cared about, she died in a car accident
after her death I just didn't care anymore
or want to live. But luckily I managed
to get threw it and never came out and
told anyone about my cutting habit until I
was 16, thats when they gave me something
for depression..
But please remember there are people who
care, and are willing to take the time out
to help you. It won't change over night,
but if you have someone to talk to I
promise you will feel so much better.
Because when I opened up finally I didn't
feel alone for the first time since I was
9, I actually realized somebody
understood.
If you would ever like to talk to anyone
or need a friend, you could write me my
email address is
treys
_girl06@yahoo.Com or send me a
private message. I promise if you write
me and would like to talk I will write you
back.
I hope things get better for you. And
remember your not alone. :)
