Curious...

Since my other topic wrapped up...

I mentioned in it I have undiagnosed blackouts.

These things exhibit recognizable auras. I can tell when they are coming, and how fast. My stomach locks up as though i'm going to vomit, and my vision warps or sometimes tilts like i'm on an amusement park ride or something. Sometimes it never fully hits and I never fall down, and other times I get floored, and the lights go out. I rarely feel myself hit the floor so i'm not sure if I lose consciousness or not, it doesn't feel like it. If I do, it's very brief. The lights stay out, but I can hear things around me. If it's in the shower, I can hear the water running. If it's in the kitchen, I hear my mom squawking about it. Moving is a no. I can try all I want to will myself to move, but my body doesn't seem to interpret that i'm supposed to move.

I went to the er twice when this happened, once just about dragged in after it. The hospitals locally blow chunks and they sent me straight home saying "it's normal for teenagers to black out", for some weird reason.

I afterwards went to rush medical, which I know is a great hospital, but I sort of worry he referenced my old records and sort of blew it off. I didn't get an eeg or any kind of real test. I described all of my symptoms, and he just went, "no, it's not a seizure. Here, have some topamax." i'm, to say, confused. He gave me the topamax for my migraines, actually, but when I came back he asked if my blackouts stopped with the topamax, and they largely had. I'd had a few "spells" where I felt like I was going to drop but never actually did since I began taking it, but never actually blacked out again.

Is this a seizure, or a simple fainting spell? And if it's seizures, what can I -do- about it? I'm only on about half the dose of topamax people are on for seizures, which might explain why I still get weird dizzy spells... I dunno. But let me tell you, hauling a ten foot christmas tree up two flights of stairs and feeling like you're going to pass out is a very, very scary feeling. Especially when you're on the bottom end. It's something i'd like to get resolved.