Well I am a 22 y/o hispanic female. Let me jsut go a head and give you my history...Its a short story so here goes my first chapter ;-)
it all started one day when I had gone to go visit my friend at the hospitaln( I was 15 y/o then). I suddenly felt like I could not breathe. It was weird because I had never experienced this at all. I felt like I had to get out of there. As I got up, I felt like I could not move. I felt really stiff. Then I noticed my hands were in a fist. I could not open them. My face then started to twitch. Like I was going to be parylized or something. I felt my toungue starting to go numb. This lasted about 5 minutes then went away. I was left with a tingling feeling all over my body. I went to the er and they said I had had a panic attack. They gave me a tranquilizer and I went home. After that happened, I stopped going out. I was scared that that might happen again and that I was going to die. I felt as if I was only safe at home. That lasted about 6 months or so. But somehow I started going out again. Then my symptoms went away.
Fast forward to about 2 years ago. I lived with my mom and my step dad. I just could not get along with him. We had a huge fight and I left. I remember that night so well. Icould not stop crying. I went to go live with my cousin which was about 10 minutes away. Ive been there now ever since.
My symptoms started 1 year ago. I had a cheeseburger from ________. Well I got food poisoning. I did not know that. I went to the doctor & had some lab work. My liver enzymes came out high. The doctor said he was going to re test me in 3 months to see if they went down, and if not he was going to test me for hepatitis. !What hepatitis!...Thats all I had to hear. I diagnosed myself with hepatits and was constantly looking at my eyes to check if they were yellow & also comparing them to every one elses. 3 months later tests came back fine.
But ever since then I have had this lightheadedness that will not go away. I thought I might have a brain tumor so I had a ct of the brain, negative. Had a complete blood work, everything came out fine. No anemia, thyroid good. So then my doctor tells me its anxiety. But how can anxiety make me feel this bad? I started going to counseling and the therapist said it was because I miss my mom, which I do, but I dont think it because of that.
So my doctor put me on fluoxetine. It helped with my panic attacks but not with the lightheadedness. So I look up at web md. Then I find multiple sclerosis. I think back to when I was 15 and think if that was my first attack? So there I go diagnosing myself. Went for an mri, negative. ( by the way, I dont have ins. So all this im paying cash). I have a\had an ekg, normal.
Im so lost. I dont know what else it can be. Im lucky that I have a boyfriend who is there by my side and listens to my problems. We still go out. To the movies the beach, dinner. I try to keep as active as ican. I see it this way "i've been like this for a year, and luckily nothing has happened to me, yet. God knows what he has in store for me." I will not let this anxiety or what ever it is get the best of me!! Please feel free to comment.
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