a Strange Question

Yeh,i can switch the cooker on,start to make some food,and walk out and forget all about it,i only remember when the smoke alarm goes off..
That smoke alarm has saved me a couple of times..Another thing I do is start to make a cup of tea for me and my brother,i have 2 sugars and my bro has none,but if I go out of the kitchen and then come back,i totally forget which cup is mine and which cup is my brothers..Thats how bad my memory is,most of the time,my memory is scrambled all the time,lots of things racing around in my head all at once...

Yeah I can relate. I think that it is because our mind is so full of worry etc that we concerntrate on things like we use to.
I find that if I am listening to someone talking to me my mind wonders off and I can walk off and wonder what the hell that where just telling me

Yes, I can relate to this although I feel i've improved again. After I left university, when I was no longer using my brain in the way I was doing at university, I started to do things like forget the words or names of things, lose my place in a sentence, and felt like I was being really thick! I also seemed to forget the meaning of some words!!
I spoke to someone about it (a boyfriend at the time who said he felt he got the same thing) and it put my mind at ease. I am now in a job where I have to plan, organise, think, and it is challenging enough to keep my brain active! If you are quite intelligent and you are in a job (or not in a job at all) where you are not having to think as much as you are capable of doing, you start to forget things are lose concentration etc.
Does anyone agree?

Hey loopy one,good name :lol:
yeh I agree totally guys,despite having anxiety and panick desorder for all these years,i still tried to remain active around the house..I got into fixing electrical stuff for a while,just for friends and reletives,but then time and technology moved on so I moved into building computers from home,then that dried up,so I ended up packing it all in,since then i`ve not done much at all for a few years,and since that time,my mind has gone all blank,and all I seem to think about these days is when is my anxiety is gonna return,i even get affraid when i`m panic free,wondering when its gonna hit me again,i know its only a matter of time,and when it does return,it hits me with a vengance,worse than the last time..The worse feelin for me is the racing heart,i really get freeked out..Dizzyness and tiredness is almost as bad,but the heart thumps is top of the sad list !! I also get flutters in my chest,all I can describe a "flutter" as,i could be just sat there minding my own business,all of a sudden i`ll feel this fluttering,as you know,us anxiety sufferers are always checking our heart rate and pulse,i usually check by putting my fingers on my neck,please tell me if any of you do the same,anyway,back to the flutter,yeh,when I get this fluttering feeling,i check my pulse and find that its unstable,like eg,a double beat,then nothing,then a few more irregular beats,then it just seems to beat real fast for about 5 minutes until I can calm myself down,its one of the most frightening feelings i`ve ever had...
Also since my mind has gone a bit,i always have to keep a dictionary next to me all the time,i forget how to spell even the sillyest of words,thats words that I could easily spell when I was younger,its very strange..
Another thing that i`ve found,is that time is passing alot faster than years ago,5 years has passed me by in a snap of a finger,i cant even remember the past 5 years,i could`nt tell you anything..

Yeah I check my pulse at least once a day, my cardioligist told me to stop doing it as it makes me more anxious. I get the missed beats and the fluttering to, I have learned to live with that it still does freak me out but not as much as it first did. Apparently 2 in 3 people have them but we just notice them more because our nerves are sensitive!
The dizziness is what I hate the most - I can't handle it and it gets me so stressed, not having control of my head etc!!!

The thumps and the flutterig is what started my gad and panic attacks. It feels terrible.If there was soemthing realyw rong they uwld of picked it up n the ecg right?

I have had every test!!! And been to 2 differant cardioligists and they have both come up with "my heart is fine and health".

I think that my anxiety started when I got sick and run down went to the doctor and he told me that I have a low resting heart rate - they found on the 24 hour monitor that my heart rate got to 43 bpm at 5.50 in the morning while asleep. So that made me think that I was dieing.

But - the cardioligist assures me that there are millions of people that have a resting heart rate of 30 of less and that they are fine. They just don't know what their heart rate is as they never have it checked!

3 years ago I was getting lots of chest pains I had 4 ekgs done and saw 3 cardios. That was befre the anxiety attacks and gad I saw one last year as well,had blood test this sumemr before all this started.The night it started I had a ekg done at the hospital.Surely if there was somehting wrong t would of been picked up and it takes more then 3 years or at least a year since my last visit or my last ekg in the septmeber right?

How do I stop checking my heart rate wat a bad habbit
also you took xanax I take rovotril same types of drugs I always have a fear of them making me go bonkers why do I ahve this fear?

The scariness and fear comes with the package mate,if you`ve got anxiety and panic desorder those are the things that you have to go thru,i got up this morning and within 5 minutes,my heart started racing,as it is now as we speak,i know there`s nothing I can do about it,so i`m just riding it out,it may last a couple of hours,then again,it might last all day,i just dont know,every time I get this racing heart,i always get this "can I say it as an internal ichy feeling + sick feeling combined ?? " yeh i`m just putting up with it but if someone tries to get me out of my front door,they`de have to drag me kicking and screaming,its just not happening,i wont do it !!! Just stick with us lot on here mate,we can all cry and moan 2gether lad :wink: