Heya, my name is renee. I've been with my boyfriend for almost two years, and I love him very much. The thing is, sometimes when we're messing around, I fell myself getting closer and closer to something, and then I think I force myself to, well, the best way I can discribe is that I force myself to kind of not experience the pleasure or something right before I would have orgasmed. I mean, i've tried not doing it. Honestly, I think a part of me is afraid to have an orgasm. Could someone help me?