Hi-
i think it would be great to talk to you! I compteted at international level in a sport that I don't want to post on here but it is similar to gymnastics. I just turned 20 now and I stopped competing 2 years ago. My eating disorder started when I was 9 and became full blown bulimia with times of anorexia when I was 13. I would like to talk with u and share stories about how it was to be in a sport with so much emphasis on body image. At this point I am really stuggling with no longer being that same athlete that I was. I still exercise and stay active but with school and working in an office I don't work out everyday for hours. It makes me even more concerned with my weight... If I was fat then I am going to be huge now that I don't train so much.

Yeah... There are many of us struggling around here, ashleigh. Try to watch the other post with time and to read them carefully, ok?
And have strengh to move on and get healthy. :)

Hi ashleigh there r so many of us struggling on this forum like v00d00cita said and if u watch all the post from time to time or post some urself we all find advice and support in some way even if its just a baby step

Realise that it's important be aware that all your effort will be needed and that you have people to help you and to listen to you at anytime!

Hi, i'm new too. I'm 22 years old and have been struggling with bulemia for almost 10 years. When I first started I was full blown bulemic. Now it's just every now and then. It would be nice to have people to talk to that know exactly how I feel. I love my fiancee dearly but he just doesn't understand. He thinks it's a waste of food and that I can just stop with the snap of a finger. I've been doing it more and more lately it seems, trying to hide it from him. I hate hiding stuff from him but i'm ashamed. I don't want him to think bad of me. You know? If anyone wants to talk, just let me know. I'm online daily.

Holly

I would love to be a part of this support group also! I've been struggling with bulimia for months now and I can't seem to escape. I've told my mom, but she has the idea that I only did it a few times. She had me see a counselor who automatically assumed a lot of things about me that weren't necessarily true. I was not comfortable sharing this personal information with a woman who acted as if she new what I was going through when she had no idea. I also told a friend, but we have sadly grown apart since then and I no longer speak to her. I would really just love to talk to other people who know and understand what I am going through. It's getting worse everyday and I really want to stop.

Welcome here, Janelle. I hope that being here will be hopeful for you as it was for me. Feel free to come to me whenever needed - this is valid for everyone.



Firstly, there is always a way out. It's hard to get through all the stuff, generally speaking, but it is totally worth it and you can do it. Seeking for professional help is good, though it may be difficult for you to open up your feelings to someone you don't know and someone who tries to read your mind all the time (not necessarily saying true things). Try again, it's and effort that will be good for you; if the therapist says something that you don't agree with, just be tell that you think in a different way and be clear in explaining what you feel.
If you want to stop, then you can stop. We'll be here for you. Let us know how you are doing.

i have been bulimic now maybe for about 16 years now i started at about 17 maybe younger i am not sure and am now 33,i have had some tough years some really really bad
but now i think i have excepted it as a way of life i cant seem to to get rid of it ever,sometimes i completely ignore it and i believe myself that i am fine but i still know i am doing it i have stopped counting how many times i throw up every day just cos its easier not to count,
i know i throw up definatly before i sleep every night there is no way i can sleep with food in my stomach,
im tired of telling or not telling my husband about stuff he knows im bulimic
ive done the whole therapy thing and am on anti depressents and sleep pills now(i had a bad phase of panick attacks too)
otherwise i am quite well i have three kids and stay busy
im an art teacher i have no idea how many times i throw up in the day but i can start counting if i tried,like id guess maybe from 4-8 times a day.i hate lie ing about it so i just don't talk about it,
it seems so normal for me now just like a normal person who would use the bathroom a few times a day im sure they dont count how many number 1s n 2s they did its that normal for me
i eat if i feel uncomfortable i throw up then im starving again do it again when i get a chance ,people say its an disorder but i say its a addiction.feel lonely about this subject glad to share please reply thanks

how did you managed to get pregnant? Where you bulimic during your pregnancies?

thank you for your reply-i seem to get pregnant easily the last 2 times i was on the pill,yes when i was pregnant i worried alot that the baby would not get enough food so i had to try really hard to keep the food i ate as long as i could bare it in my stomach so my body could break down the the food which actually happens very fast the body starts breaking down the necessaryvitamins and minerals needed for ones body almost immediately after ingestion after i brought my food back up i would make sure id replace it asap and keep that as long as i could bare it i could not breast feed for long though after the births all my babies were healthy.

Dieting already?

One of Brazil’s great philosophers, Tim Maia, once said: “I decided to go on a strict diet. I cut out alcohol, all fats and sugar. In two weeks I lost 14 days”.

For 28 years I have been living with a marvelous woman who now and again loses her temper and her usual good humor because she feels that she has put on a couple of kilos. I wonder if maybe we are exaggerating a little. One thing is obesity, another is trying to stop the time and normal evolution of our organism.

The worst of it all is that at each and every moment there appears a new way to lose weight: eating calories, then not eating calories, compulsively consuming fats, then avoiding fats at any price. We step inside a pharmacy and are visually assaulted by all sorts of miraculous products that promise to do away with our desire to eat, with our fat tissue, with our belly, and so on.

We have survived all these millennia because we could eat. And nowadays this seems to have turned into a curse. Why is that? What makes us try at the age of 40 to keep the same body we had when we were young? Will it ever be at all possible to stop this dimension of time?

Of course not. And so why do we need to be slim?

We don’t. We buy books, go to the gym, devote a great deal of our concentration trying to stop time, when we ought to be celebrating the miracle of living in this world. Instead of wondering how to live better, we are obsessed with how much we weigh.

Let’s forget all that; you can read all the books you want, do all the exercise you want, suffer all the punishment you decide to inflict on yourself, and you will have only two choices – you either stop living, or else you will get fat.

It is obvious that you have to eat moderately, but above all you have to take pleasure in eating. Jesus Christ said that: “evil is not what goes into man’s mouth, but rather what comes out of it”.

The other day I was in a Lebanese restaurant with an Irish friend, and we were talking about salads. With all due respect to vegetarians and the fundamentalists of food, for me, salad is just something to decorate a dish. We cannot live without it, but on the other hand we cannot consider it as the center of our gastronomic attention. Every day the newspapers publish stories of young people looking for fame on the catwalk who end up dying because of this obsession with weight.

Remember that for thousands of years we fought to avoid being hungry. Who invented this story that we have to spend our whole life being slim?

Let me give you the answer: the vampires of the soul, who think that it is possible to stop the wheel of time. It is not possible. Use the energy and the effort of a diet to feed yourself with the bread of the spirit, and go on enjoying (moderately, let me repeat) the pleasures of good eating. Last year I wrote a series of columns on the capital sins, and greed was one of them. But what exactly is greed? An obsession.

The same goes for diets. And this is where the two extremes meet and become harmful to our health. While millions of people the world over are hungry, we see people provoking this other obsession because at some moment or other somebody decides that being slim is the only option for regaining youth and beauty.

Instead of artificially burning those calories, we should try to turn them into the energy we need to fight for our dreams; no-one has ever stayed slim for long just by following a diet.

I really need help. im getting worse and worse at binging and then throwing up... i dont know who to talk to to and i scare myself. this isnt me... i dont know what to do. i see you guys have had the courage to write on here and thought maybe i could talk to one of you??? ive been doing it for almost a year now and have been in complete denial... dont know who to talk to

If you need help, feel free to talk to me via PM, if it suits you better, dear.
Go ahead, we are here to help you.

Yeh i would really like that, how can i contact you via pm? (do you mean personal messaging?)

Thank you...

You can use the Private Message centre of the forum. Just click on my user picture and you'll be redirected to my profile page, where you'll find the option "Send PM"

I have realized I need to stop. But, I dont know how and I am deathly afraid of gaining weight. Also in the back of my mind I dont want to. I have accepted bulimia as a way of life for me. I am 26 years old and have been binging and purging for 13 years. I am obsessed with food I eat for fun and I constantly think about it. But I know I cant do it anymore. It has started taking a toll on my teeth. I need some advice, somebody please help?

Hello, dear, and welcome to this forum. I hope that you find yourself at ease here and that we can help you.
It is normal that you feel affraid and that those thoughts haunt you; I've been there and I totally understand you. But you must stop. A little step at a time.
These conditions have already killed people who used this forum, as Sarah (mxgurlie) is an example. We were very fond of each other and we considered ourselves good friends.
If you don't stop, you may end up dead on a hospital bed, as it happened to her, alone. I am sure that you don't want that, dear, and that you deserve better. It's a huge struggle, but you can indeed make it.

If you need to talk or some private counselling, feel free to PM me as well.

Get better and let us know how you are doing *

Im 16 years old and am 5.2 ft and have had bulemia before. It started after my dad died and lasted for a year and ahalf untill my mum and sister helped me,i weighed 65 kg when i first started and was 40 kg by the end of it. i seen a doctor and a physcrist,bulemia runs in my family my auntie had it and so did my nana when she was young. My physcrist said it was probly trigered by the loss of my dad and the stress. at the time i had a 19 year old boyfriend who was very controlling and judgmental. I have recently fallen off the waggon as goes the saying, i weight 60 kg but feel so over weight i started again after breaking up with my boyfriend of 2 years. i have been bing eating and throwing up again for 2 months now and am really scared of getting back to the way i was,but dont feel i can stop and i dont want to ask for help? what should i fo?

I really need help. My teeth are starting to rot. I've been binging and purging for 8 years. My throat is sore and I know I have a problem. I don't know how to stop. If anyone has any advise I could really use some.