I'm 16. To give a little background, i'm
a junior in highschool, probably majoring
in architecture once attending college.
During my sophomore year, I really didn't
do much, I had friends but spent most of
my time inside playing video games, mainly
world of warcraft. It was aweosme, but I
always knew it was just a temporary
happiness. I had been eyeing a girl for
about a year, and she had been with her
boyfriend for over three years. They had
had sex a few times, but nothing more than
a few times. I was full aware of this.
I started hanging out with her, and spent
more and more time with her. I fell head
over heels in love with her. I loved
every moment with her, and I knew I wanted
to spend the rest of my life with her.
Stuff got bad with her boyfriend, and I
was able to go out with her.
We've been together ten months. We've had
oral sex, but nothing more. Since day one
i've been sure she's the one I want to
lose my virginity to. The time we spend
together is amazing. We dont fight, we're
always happy and never go to sleep angry
at one another. We hang out all the time,
and I love it.
However, about two months ago we were in a
position to have sex, and although I
started out hard when we were removing
clothes, by the time we were on the bed I
was no longer hard. This happened twice.
This basically ruined all sexual
experiences fo rthe next two months, and
really put things in a shakey position.
We still love eachother to death, however
she feels taht the only way shed feel
confident knowing I fully loved her was if
we were able to have sex. I understand
this, since I have absolutly no complaints
or problems with our relationship. I just
dont understand why it cant happen. She's
stuck by my side this whole period, but I
need an answer. Two months we've had
problems even just having oral sex, and I
think i've let my head get involved too
much, worrying about "am I going to get
hard tonight, what if I dont, what will
she think, what will I do, why am I
thinking?"
we've been in a position before where I
thought I was actually in her vagina, but
it turned out I wasnt. I was hard
throughout that entire experience, and it
has nothing to do with having a condom at
the ready or the right preperation.
