I was on yasmin for 8 months and I experienced all the symptoms possible; irritability, crying all the time, fatigue, nausea, headaches, pain, suicidal thoughts, and just plain feeling like I was going crazy.

On wednesday of last week I had a mental breakdown, and started crying. I cry over the smallest things, but this time I couldn't stop crying. I decided that was the last night I was going to take yasmin, and it was.

The next day I went to my college health center and they gave me a prescription for ortho tri-cyclen lo. I have not started yet, but i'm fretting because I do not even want to try this brand either.

I feel great off of birth control, even though i'm cramping and my face has broken out very badly. I look like an acne-faced middleschooler going through puberty at almost age 20.

The problem is that my boyfriend and I are very paranoid people; we use a condom and the birth control and he always pulls out before he cums for fear of breaking the condom (which has happened due to the fact yasmin also made me very dry).

I know the risks, but I don't want to go back on hormones. The feelings i've had over the last few months i've had before; i've been a suicidal teenager, i've known the feeling of angst and depression; but over the last few years i've rid myself of these feelings and have finally found myself, and a wonderful person to share myself with.

Now, it's not just about sex to him and i, it's about intimacy as well, and he's a very understanding person, but I know that just a condom for sex is not going to fly with him.

I know my physical and mental health are to be put first, and I know he won't leave me over this, but i'm not sure what I should do.

I know there are iuds and pills and patches, but frankly I just want to be free.

Has anyone had this problem? I have considered buying a fertility monitor to show the times we should and shouldnt have sex. Any other ideas? Ways to convince him?

I'm scared the con's outweigh the pro's in taking birth control. I do not want a child right now, but the way my body felt and the way I look after coming off of this pill.. I just don't know anymore! :oops: