I have not had sex in over a year
and now I never will ever again! I was a "good" girl, thinking I did everything right. I never had unprotected sex, unless I was in what I thought was a commited monogamous relationship, based on trust.

I went to the doctor's before I decided that we won't use condoms anymore. Everything checked out fine, I was healthy.

The last guy I dated, he was the fifth person I slept with.

Man, I found this little bump on vulva, outer lip and I am so pissed, it is nothing I have seen on me prior. I have to go to the doctor's, but I am scared. I am also flat broke too, this little raised skin area, it hurts too.
I think it is hpv, wart, ugh

man,

i am pissed off. I thought "god" does not give you more than you can handle, I think that is a bunch of bs, because I can't handle this

i am stressed about so many things in my life, I can't handle this

i feel so gross, it is all shame, I am such a great person, and to think I can never be with anyone ever again, man that is a ton of decades left in my life to be alone,

i can't handle this, you try to be a "good" person, and be safe, and do all the right stuff, and it still happens, life sucks