:( :( I feel a real mess at the moment . A week before christmas I had to have a medical termination severe problems with my baby meant that it was incompatible with life so this has been very difficult to deal with. There are 2 women at my sons nursery that are pregnant I cant even look at them when I do I have to try my hardest to hold my self together . I cry all the time about all sorts of things I feel totally unhappy with my whole life , I try to think of positive things but nothing works. I seem to put on loads of weight when bad things happen so this is making me feel even worse I feel total miserable I don't even want to get out of bed in the mornings . I am always shouting at my little boy for no reason but I find I am very irritable . I hate my self I just want to stop crying !!!!!!!!!!!