:( :( I feel a real mess at the moment .
A week before christmas I had to have a
medical termination severe problems with
my baby meant that it was incompatible
with life so this has been very difficult
to deal with. There are 2 women at my
sons nursery that are pregnant I cant
even look at them when I do I have to try
my hardest to hold my self together . I
cry all the time about all sorts of things
I feel totally unhappy with my whole life
, I try to think of positive things but
nothing works. I seem to put on loads of
weight when bad things happen so this is
making me feel even worse I feel total
miserable I don't even want to get out of
bed in the mornings . I am always
shouting at my little boy for no reason
but I find I am very irritable . I hate
my self I just want to stop crying
!!!!!!!!!!!
