I've been diagnosed with bipolar for 6
years now and well I may not have told the
doctors enough in the begining for them to
acuratly depict me. My bipolar itself
seems to be mostly control'd but I have
outbreaks of these mind break downs where
I have two "voices" or opinions in my head
one rational and one not like wether to
leave work for no real reason just to go
home and sit and fret about looseing my
job for leaving. The non rational wins
quite frequently as during these "stages"
this is the stronger of the two opinions.
I also have strong beliefs that I can
mantain my state through obsorption of
electricity that I lay awake at night and
my body does these quakes that to me is
obsorbing electricity from the
soroundings...I've gone as far a to
imagine building a "zapper" or sorta that
I could control the amount of electricity
I would intake. This sounds crazy even to
me and i'm not sure I believe it myself,
but I do it quite often. I am irratic at
times with the way I do things and quite
structured others. I have no idea how to
stop these thought flows and I do not any
longer believe them to be bipolar but have
no clue if they are to go as far as
schiophrenia. Please respond I need help
soon, may loose my job and my doctor won't
see me very quickly.
