Okay, I feel a little better. I looked at some pictures of me with my family from 06, some of the only recent pictures of me that exist of me where I don't have long hair, and I have to say I look normal in them.
The only thing wrong, really, is that I hold my head at an angle, b/c that was before I knew I had bad posture due to genetic and over-working my self doing manual labor jobs.
Anyway, I look normal. Or at least like I do in the mirror (just one mirror).
I think (hope to god) that how you see yourself in double mirrors shows all your flaws that are normally obscured, and that close up photos show these too. b/c I'm going around asking people I know and can trust fairly well things like "Is my mouth slanted at all" and I'll get "No, its actually very straight." and I'll ask about my nose and get the same.
And showing the pics of me from 06, people will say that thats how I look in real life too...
I hope they're right. But still in double reflections I look sooooo bad, and so very very different. I hope thats only an illusion.
What do you guys think?
I still wanna talk to a doctor. Tho in normal mirrors (and hopefully real-life) I look completely normal, I look so unhealthy/crooked in double mirrors it makes me wonder if I could have some underlying/hidden bone disease or something. God I look bad in two mirrors.
But like I said, in normal mirrors and good pictures, I look pretty damn handsome.
This is making my head spin. I don't know what to think.
BTW, to all the people brave enough to post pics, you guys look attractive. I hope you're like me, and were so shaken up my the (horrible lies!) of the double mirror that you've began to pick yourselves apart.
Everybody who's pics I've seen have good chins/cheekbones. ms bean & Biani have slighly crooked mouth, but they're not too bad. Like mine, they're probably from a twisted spine and an unsymmetrical jaw. The jaw can be fixed, but neither of your mouths look that bad. Like I said, close up pics and bad angles really show off your imperfections that would normally go unnoticed.
opposingrhythms doesn't look bad. I know, like me, there's probably not anything someone can say to make you feel better or look at yourself differently, but your nose isn't that bad at all. Totally not ugly. You have some great cheekbones.
I think the goddamned double mirror thing was so traumatic on us that its completely skewed our self-image.
edit: BTW, this might make you feel better (might not).
Look at pictures of Kurt Cobain. He had a twisted spine and in some pictures, he looks reeeally bad. And in others, he looks like a completely different person. Once he got famous, and for a while had a good self-image and held himself with some confidence, he was regarded as a hunk and a teen idol.
But looking at home footage, and home photos of him before he was famous from the 80s, he looked like a completely different person.
In this day and age, movie stars and models and crammed down our throats and make us feel like hideous monsters, which is wrong b/c no one looks like movie stars do. Not even them. (BTW I've heard someone say that Edward Norton has a crooked mouth. I haven't noticed it, but I know he has back trouble b/c he has pretty bad posture in the movie Fight Club)
Anyway for instance, look at these pics of eminem from his childhood:
http://www.moviecritic.com.au/userimages/u
ser624_1153111833.jpg
http://www.lolviral.com/wp-content/uploads
/2007/11/young-eminem.png
http://media.collegepublisher.com/media/pa
per851/stills/3f1244feecd04-5-1.jpg
http://www.hiphopgame.com/images/crazy/emi
nempic.jpg
Hardly anyone has a perfect face without perfect lighting, perfect camera angles, a professional makeup crew, and computer editing. Study his and you'll notice he's slightly unsymmetrical. The only person who comes close to perfect in my mind is Johnny Depp, but if you watch interviews from him, you may notice that his jaw isn't completely even.
I hope I made some of you feel better. I don't really, but I'm pessimistic.
Still it doesn't hurt to try to give others hope.