What a tremendous site. Can't believe there are so many people going through exactly what I am.
I'm a rather older guy, but look considerably younger than I am, and still go out to bars and clubs looking for my dream girl. However, I finally realized I've been living an illusion for all these years. That illusion being what I see everyday in the mirror - a fairly decent looking guy.
But then the double mirror thing reveals something totally different, but something I optimistically dismissed a while ago as some kind of distortion. But it is hard to dismiss what photos reveal - something downright hideous.
And like most of you, I'm in a quandary
And still partially submersed in denial, I would go on thinking that all I had to do was contort my jaw in such a way when out in public to correct it. So whenever it came time for a new ID photo, I would contort my jaw in a different manor, hoping to see a favorable result - but none was ever forthcoming.
And like most of you, I'm in a quandary, wondering what the hell I really look like! I wish I could grab a hold of my eyeballs and stretch them out to catch a glimpse what I really look like.
I've accepted the fact that both sides of my face are different, and I'm cool with that. I figure hey, someone's getting two looks for the price of one! If she gets tired of looking at one side of me, she can just tell me to turn around. But what bothers me is what I must look like straight on with a radically crooked mouth.
Now I don't know if this is genetic (haven't gone back to examine any childhood photos yet) or if it stems from the loss of my left front tooth playing hockey when I was about 12. But it seems as though it's the mandible that is lower on my right side causing my mouth to slant down that way. I think that if you could just lower the hinge on my left mandible a little, everything would be corrected. I've searched around my mouth with my tongue for an adjustment screw but haven't located it yet. There should be one right? I don't have the $ or insurance for surgery.
Then again, maybe it could be a TMJ thing because I do get this strange tightening of the side of my head (more about that later).
Anyway, I recently discovered that if I pucker my lips together a little to make my mouth more oval, it is much less noticeable. But heaven forbid I should meet a nice girl and have to open my mouth and talk to her! What would I do?
I thought I met the girl of my dreams several months ago. She always gave me a wave and big smile, and seemed to want to touch me a lot, but always seemed reluctant to look me straight on and talk to me.
So for now on, it's only a nod or shake of the head. Women always want to do most of the talking anyway, right? If she wants me to say anything, she can close her eyes, or converse with me sitting in a car or something. Or better yet, we can just sit there starring at each other and texting!
I’ll post some pics tomorrow.