I'm 17 year old with a mild case of schizo-why-the-hell-did-i-do-to-have-that sickness. I have recovered a lot since last year yet i'm still fearful of relapse. My parents are'nt very supportive (even though they say they are), i'm ok right now but what about in the future.

Let's all start in the beginning. You see when I was a kid I was like the kid who rather be alone and read books. As time passed by I grow lonely and more insecure for all my talents involve being alone like drawing. I became unconfident everyday till I reached the breaking point. No need to get in the stupid suicidal attempts info but here I am now in my whole country with his whole life ahead of him.

Last two years I was labled a robot at my new school and was bullied mercylessly for I have entirely gave up on life yet at the next year I fixed myself after I finded real friends and beaten all those bullies at their own game because I know someone believes in me. I had the last laugh and gained their respect and learned so much more to life.

I love shopping,singing,writing, and socializing yet now that i'm on summer vacation it seems like everyday seems more like a fight to fight the emptyness that at one time controled me. What am I suppose to do now? I have too much people believing in me to give up......To my self!

My only connection to reality was the people who I connected with....I need more bonding. Someone who can truly understand I guess. Bah, right now i'm sick with the measles. My dreams,my reality, my life is at stake.