Hey ladies and gents,

i found out six weeks ago that I was six weeks pregnant, I was over the moon when I found out even though I had just split with the father, I didnt tell him til I was 10 weeks and as soon as his family got involvedi was under so much pressure and so stressed, I stopped thinking about my baby and my heart just colapsed, I booked a coucilling session at a womens clinic and when I turned up there was no councillor for me, just a nurse, and she convinced me that the best thing to do would be having a termination, I am the sort of person that questions everything and has an opinion on everything because I have been rooted over so many times,i have never been in a situation like this and unfortunately I was not myself this day, I needed help and that was the stupid advise they gave me, it was a complete out of body experience and I went along with it, they told me I could back out any time before they put me to sleep, they tried gettting the drip in my right hand first and tore a vein sending me through mindless pain, I was completely numb, she tried the other arm and as I looked up to the roof the vents in the roof started to move, I turned my head and while thinking stop, I love my baby and I dont want this to happen, I said to her, I think, I dont want this, she rubbed my arm and replied, you'll be ok darling, and I remember nothing after that, I feel like ive killed part of myself and like they took advantage of me. I dont know how iwill ever get through this, all im trying to say is if youve got a at least a little love to give, value your baby and never step foot in a womens clinic that does terminations, they'll do anything to get their money.