I know i've mentioned how emotional i've been. Well...It seems that even when I sleep...I can't get a break from it!! I just had to share this weird and oddly funny dream:

in my dream my fiancee (dave) had apparently slept with another woman. Seems like it hadn't bothered me at the time...But all of a sudden it hits me...Maybe she was pregnant!!!?? Now...I go to the calendar and start trying to figure out when she could test. I guess she had about a week to go before her period would have been due (somehow I just knew when her cycles were? Lol!!). So I start to really get upset. I mean...Not only do I have to wait to see if i'm preggo...But now I have to wait to see if this other woman is pregnant too?? I tried to call dave over so I could talk to him about it and he just sat there ignoring me. So I just sat there and cried and cried and cried!! That was pretty much when I woke up.

But...When I woke up...I was still crying!!!! I told dave about my weird dream and he laughed!!! I guess it was pretty funny...But I was still crying even when I tried to tell him about it! God! It was messed up!! I have been with dave for almost 9 years now and he would never cheat on me...So that's not a concern (thank god!)...But the idea that he might have gotten some other woman pregnant when I so desperately wanted a baby...That was sooo heart breaking! I've been having some weird dreams...But this one was by far the weirdest!!