Looking For a Better Answer Posted: 04-10-06 00:31am
Well here goes. I didn't start doing coke
untill I was around 27 or so. Now I am 32
and in the last 3yrs I have done coke
every day mostly minus maybe 3 months
total time. I try to get away, but always
seem to easily go right back. The main
problem I seem to have is trying to go out
and drink without it. I am so used to
having coke make me so much better to
drive when I get drunk I forget what it
was like before I started doing it. I
don't even want to drink hardly at all
without it because of how good both of
them feel together. I know the main
problem is I hang out with people who all
pretty much do it too. Even the days when
I try to relax and stay clean I seem to
get wrapped back in. I def do way better
than I used to do with it. I went from
pretty much 6-7 days a week, and now
mostly 2-3 times a week. I think
sometimes because I got so used to
drinking and doing coke I don't know how
to do either without it. I don't even
enjoy it at all without booze. I just
need to figure out somehow to get away
from it as much as I can. I did very well
with it for a long time in limiting the
amount I would do, and not letting it
affect me as hard as others. I dont get
the hard "crash" most people get. I just
really love how I feel when doing both
coke and alcohol, which seems to be the
main problem. Well, first time poster
here, and just maybe wanted to hear from
someone in my shoes. Just really getting
tired of seeing the sun come up every
weekend.
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Songwriter105
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 10 Apr 2006 Posts: 22 Location: Windsor
Posted: 04-10-06 06:58am
Hey man...I had a very very close friend
of mine have his life cut drastically
short partly due to his coke addiction.
And the one main, and sole thing that I
really need to share, is the importance of
having someone you love, and can trust at
your side.
If you are truly serious about kicking the
habit, talk to your doctor firstly, then
i'd suggest a counsellor or support group.
I know a lot of this sounds, "sissy" and
"weird" but man...Your life is worth a lot
more than an hour of pride a night.
Keep checking in...It'll take you a long
long time to be fully free...And the
withdrawls are gonna be hell...I've seen
it, I know...But you really need someone
to depend on during that time.
Keep us informed yeah? I really hope you
succeed, and wish you the best.
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shadowalker164
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Jan 2005 Posts: 175 Location: Tampa, FL
Posted: 04-10-06 09:12am
I may have this wrong, but it seems you
are looking for a way to contune
snorting/smoking coke, and continue
drinking and to get away with it.
Good luck at that.
In a year or two from now, you are going
to call what is going on in your life
right now the good old days. If you think
things are tough now, you ain’t seen
nothin’ yet.
It is never going to willingly let you go.
It is going to run you through the meat
grinder until you no longer say things
like “i don't even want to drink hardly
at all without it because of how good both
of them feel together.” one day you will
be at the jumping off point. You will no
longer be able to imagine how you can go
on one more day like you are living, and
you won’t be able to imagine life
without the very thing that is killing
you.
Only then will you be in a position to do
something concrete about your addiction.
That brand of desperation is a gift for
people like us.
Richard
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lostsoul9999
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 10 Apr 2006 Posts: 3
Posted: 04-10-06 11:48am
Well guys I really appreciate the input.
I think I am ready to try and get away
from this evil beast which I see only
towards a path to an early grave. I want
to know what its like to feel healthy
again, and take my career to where it
needs to be. I just have to stay away
from it and the people who have it all the
time. I know the love of a good woman
would def be a plus. I gotta just get
back to the gym, and direct my energy in a
different way. I will keep you updated of
my progress. I never managed to ever
stick to my guns before in my life. Maybe
this is the one true test I need to get
accomplished.
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shadowalker164
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 14 Jan 2005 Posts: 175 Location: Tampa, FL
Posted: 04-10-06 15:16pm
9999, just one last follow up. If just
saying so, if just saying “i quit”
worked well, we would be hard pressed to
find an active coke head, drunk, or junky
anywhere. But the fact is there are
millions of coke heads, alcoholics and
heroin addicts dieing as we speak, with
the words “o quit” echoing in their
ears. We have all said those words many
times before, and we always went back
out.
Like I said before, this thing won’t let
go of you easily, you won’t let go of it
easily either. Somewhere in the back of
your mind you know this is true. My
advice at this point is seek out other
recovering coke heads, guys who used like
you and are clean today, and ask them how
they did it.
Trying to quit solo is without a doubt the
hardest way to do it.
Richard
p.S. The love of a good woman, as
wonderful as that is, isn’t worth a damn
against what you are facing.
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Dr Lx
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 29 Mar 2006 Posts: 12 Location: Europe
Posted: 04-24-06 10:58am
Might be an idea to stay away from all
your friends who are still doing coke for
a while?
Cocaine has a very strong hold on the mind
and it is very easy to be tempted
especially if other people are doing it
right next to you.
Why don't you book a holiday somewhere.
Clear your mind and take the first step to
a new life without cocaine?
