After searching for answers I finaly decided to have an abortion. I found some help on this site but the site imnotsorry.Net as suggested by jenn (i think) gave me the most help. I also found it helpful to write out everything that was going through my mind. I was never 100% happy with my choice but knew it was the right thing for me to do. I accepted that one day I might regret it, but also I vowed that when the time was right, I would try to raise a child in the right environment and I could teach the right values and give them the upbringing they deserve. Just before my abortion, I had the scan, it showed no pregnancy. While undergoing other tests to see if it was ectopic, it ruptured causing me to undergo emergency treatment to remove the pregnancy from my tube. I feel relieved that my guilt of abortion has been lifted, but I still would have gone through with it. Im now coping with the feeling of losing a child, whether it was meant to be or not. I think im doing ok. The last few weeks have been the toughest of my life but I have learnt so much about myself and about how it could feel to be a parent. I definately see the world differently and my priorities are changing. So if I can offer any advice to someone considering abortion I would say its probably the hardest decision ever but use the experience positively. There is a lot of soul searching to do and whatever you decide, make sure you come through the other side a stronger, wiser and more positive person. No experience is a bad experience as long as you keep learning and growing. I now truly believe that. Good luck.X