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Reasons on y to stop, I never really learned of any

Getting loaded is getting loaded. It doesn’t make a bunch of difference what we use to change our perceptions of reality. The underlying motivation is still the same.

How do I change my take on this world to a sufficient degree to enable me to take a pass on a reefer when someone sparks it up right in front of me?

I am an alcoholic, I drank too much. I also loved dope. I operated my own garden for years. I had to quit drinking or throw away my life, I felt I had no other valid choice but to involve myself in recovery. And in turn, I haven’t had a drink in a long time.

But for something like two years, I continued to smoke dope. What harm did it do? It wasn’t like I was passing out or driving drunk. It seemed to do some harm as far as zoning out all the time, but it was a damn sight better than being blind drunk.

But the reality was I was still dissatisfied with naked reality. I still wanted to change the way I felt, and do it fast. If I had a bag, I thought about when could I light one up all the time. I was still obsessing about a substance that could alter my perceptions chemically. My relationship with reefer was much like my relationship with alcohol, obsessive.

I gave up alcohol in order to be free of that damn obsession of when can I start drinking, how much can I drink, and how can I make it work? I applied the same tools I learned to use against alcohol to put down the bong,

my freedom from chemical augmentation just gets better and better. It seems that this getting better business is strictly an inside job. The world around me doesn’t change one iota, I do. And in turn, I find I don’t need to alter my perception of this world if I am happy with it just the way it is.

Dan, like you said, just thinking about it doesn’t change much. More action may be required.

Richard

Weed is about the easiest drug to quit abusing, your may become psychologically addicted but think about the physically addicting drugs like amphetamines and coke. The withdrawals from the amp's are hard enough, like havings seizures, I was addicted for over 6 months. Weed is the least of your worries. Just put your mind to it.
Kword

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It is a chemical what is easy for some is not easy for others, if you do not think you caan do it alone, get help! You have made the 1st step , by admitting it, check withmental health, please do not take me wrong, I am not saying that you are crazy but they might be able to lead you in the right direction or check with the chemical dependency places, stop hanging out with those that do it.
The best of luck to you!