Hi- I am new here, so please bear with me- I am so depressed tonight that I almost can't stand it- I wasn't particularly depressed earlier today, but tonight, it's back to the dreaded "in the inescapable abyss" type of severe depression. And it hurts---i have seen a psychdoc for the past 8 years and, after trying many meds, we found a combination that seemed to work fairly well for me- I still had the clinical depression, but it at least eased things for me more of the time and made things bearable more of the time. And now, i'm feeling the horrific kind of depression again. I felt it saturday and again about two weeks ago, so now i'm getting scared that the whole "enchilada" is coming back to roost.

Before, we were at the point that my psychdoc was suggesting ect.
I didn't want to do that, for several reasons. One, that I was scared of it, two, that i'd have to stay in the psych ward for about a week so that they could monitor me(i've been there-no thanks as to going back there), and three, that someone would have to take me early each morning and bring me back home after my treatment. There's no one that could do that last part.

Please help remind me that this will end- I had been able to remind myself of that fairly well, but not with these last couple of times. I also tend to get overwhelmed, feel that I can no longer handle this world, and cycle around that cycle of generalized anxiety, in addition to the clinical depression or by itself. I have no idea if any of this is making sense, but I hope it is. I'm not asking for an answer, just some reassurance.
Thanks a lot- emmiebg :(