I Know You All Get This Question All the Time

I've been seeing psychiatrists for years, and I describe the same symptoms to all of them. I'm very delusional. To the point of believing i'm being watched from the second I wake up in the morning until I go to sleep. There are also grandiose thoughts. People are communicating to me through all forms of media. Every channel, every sentence (don't worry, write away if you wanna respond), every movement, attitude, clothing color, you name it. Anything could be a signal. My agoraphobia is debilitating to say the least. I have had panic attacks in the past although they seem to be subsiding lately. The anxiety has not stopped and has prevented me from doing lots of important things. I do drink alcohol heavily on occaision although it is not a daily thing.

There are no voices in my head, and hallucinations, if any, are very abrupt. I've been furious about all this before. I've even accused my parents very angrily of being a part of it. I take a moderate dose of paxil and a moderate dose of risperdal. Neither of which has seemed to have a huge effect on anything. Course alcohol in any amount doesn't help.

(sorry for the length) i've been diagnosed as bi-polar type ii once before, but the severity of everything seems a little more hardcore than that. Misdiagnoses have been made before with this sort of thing. My psychiatrists wouldn't be holding anything back for some reason would they? Cause they don't say anything when I tell them about this stuff. I know I also look like one hell of a narcissist. Its just getting old. Any opinions would be greatly appreciated.