I just saw your posts. I was looking at the series of posts by the woman who thought she was pregnant abdominally and noticed you entering the discussion, so when I saw you had your own thread asking about an ectopic pregnancy I thought i'd check.
Sweetie, i'm sorry for what you have been through. Miscarriage can be very difficult if you are wanting to have a baby. It can especially be hard if you end up having to go through a small version of labor.
Some of the things you mentioned in your series of posts sound like they might lead to more anxiety than you need when you get pregnant again. Have you considered working with a perinatal counselor? Someone who can help you work through whatever fears or concerns come up, either new or caused by traumatic experiences from the past? It should be someone who knows quite a bit about childbearing/pregnancy/postpartum, etc., as well as having experience with counseling techniques.
Even if you aren't planning on pregnancy again right away, it might be a good idea, just to help you with any feelings or worries from your miscarriage-to help you be stronger until you are ready again.
Blessings,
fiora