Hi everybody. I'm 15, almost 16, and I have this strong desire to become pregnant. Please don't yell at me. I don't know what's gotten into me, i've felt this way for a few months.
I know i'm probably not ready, but I yearn for it. I have no boyfriend (only an admirer), i'm a virgin, and i'm christian. The baby isn't even necessarily what I want to get pregnant for (although I know i'll become excited waiting for him/her, and i'll love him/her when she/he comes), I just want to be pregnant. To have something growing in my belly, to lay around without being considered lazy, to care for something besides myself, to have people pay attention to me. This all sounds like stupid crap, I know.
I'm also severely depressed. I don't know what to do about how I feel about wanting to get pregnant. My mind is telling me to remain how I am, work hard in school, go to college, etc, but it is also telling me to get pregnant. I can't see my self having sex, but I don't know...
What do I do?