I am due in 6 days and I absolutely loathe the father of this child. We have been together for approximately 6 years (on & off). He is a drug & porn addict. He would deny both of the addictions if confronted. But when ever he is given the opportunity he is on it, anywhere ranging from 3-6 times a week. We are tight on cash right now, but he continues to buy pornography. We have battled with this situation for years now. I couldn't even believe I got pregnant since we only have sex 1 a month, unless he is high on certain types of drugs. No matter how much we yell, or how much I cry nothing changes. He says it is my problem, and I should get over it. I don't have my family to turn to, and I don't want to turn to a shelter. I passed up an apartment in my price range the other week, just because I was so close to delivering. But I don't know what to do. I don't want to expose a baby to this kind of environment, although he promises that the drugs will stop after the baby arrives.
I'm sure this sound selfish, but the porn hurts me just as much as the drugs. I know men look at porn, but his collection is obsurd & he would rather look at that & touch himself than touch me. Normally I have to beg for sex (even pre-pregnancy). We used to do the drugs together, until I got pregnant, not as frequently. As soon as I found out I was pregnant I stopped everything, but he just got worse. I feel so helpless, I don't know what to do.