I have been away from our house now for a full day and you know that this is the first time I could really sit a eat a meal with out feeling sick and got my first really night of sleep. I have to leave my parents thursday to return home for work and I am worried about when I get home what kinda of state we will be in? I am almost certain it won't be good and also I have an uneasy feeling about going back to our house like I almost hate the place for all of the bad memories of the weeks past. How do I act when I get there? What do I do when she picks me up at the airport(hug or etc) or what I am still in love with her and want to show my feelings as such to her but before I left she said no more intmatancy between us till she figures out who she wants to be with. What do I do????????
:? I know what you are going through. You are going to be walking on eggshells for awhile. You have two choices... Throw your feelings out there, wear your heart on your sleeve, as they say, and let her know how you feel. That way there is no confusion on her part. Perhaps she is in the same straights as you...Wondering how to act when she sees you.
Or... You can hide your feelings and force her to express hers first.
Thing is, are you willing to take a chance that she is hurt enough not to go there with you...?
You admitted in the previous post that your actions are the one that began all this tension and misunderstanding..Perhaps it is your actions that will put it all to rest. Go for it, smile when you see her, hug her and tell her how you missed her. She will see the truth or not...But at least you will have tried. Why put it off any longer?