I Have An Overeating Disorder!!!!

I can understand what you are saying I for one eat when I get bored and would eat just because I guess for the heck of it and I too am not really overwight but I fell fat so my 1 meal a day with like 1 yogurt eating habits I just would literaly go to sleep to escape the hunger when my whole kitchen was full with lots of healthy food like fruits and veges and salad and ect.... I was just sooo frustrated and then I would stop and go to eat everything like candy bars and just candy, chips, pie and supper and dinner and lunch and whatever was served I am on a diet right now and I binged on goldfish and well I guess u know where I am going I went to the restroom and ect. I am trying not only to lose weight but do it healthy and not just lose weight but change my life from unhealthy to healthy!!!!
Kaylathecoolest

Thank you kayla for your post! It's good to know that I am not alone and other people feel the same way as I do. I appreciate your support since I don't seem to get it from my boyfriend. He just thinks I am crazy. But he is also skinny and can eat whatever he wants and not gain a pound. Damn men!!! So that doesn't help my situation out. Thanks again for your concern :)

I also have that problem, I feel the same...
I'm trying to lose it, so I started going to the nutritionist at the nutrition school of my university.
Now I eat as normally as I can, but sometimes, like today, I just eat eat eat. At least I don't binge for 14 days now, and thought sometimes I still overeat, I d0n't do it as regularly as I used to and when I do it it's not as much as it was.
I guess i'm taking baby steps and doing slow baby steps...
On my case, I can't count with the support of my family. Only four people plus my two doctors know i'm bulimic...

You know it isn't all about how much you eat alot of it falls onto what you eat. Have you tried switching some of your processed snacks for fresh fruit and veg? It really worked for me.

Over last summer I lost a bunch of weight on atkins and when I moved out on my own I kinda through out the atkins rules and started eating whatever. I slowly gained weight and found my self binging and purging. It started on christmas. I notice as soon as I am left alone and have access to food I have a reaction to head towards the kitchen and put whatever is available into my mouth. I have tons of pretzles that I eat but its not good to eat a whole bag by yourself. I find I rationalize like a speed demon. Just yesterday I ran to the kitchen and because it was fat free I felt it was ok to eat the icecream. And then some more and realizing I had not only the ability but the means to eat more I continued to eat and eat and eat and finished off the entire half gallon(at least I think it was a half gallon) of the dryers. And over half of the other one. I always eat breakfest and try to stay away from sweets but I find myslef binging on cookies. Running into my school coffee shop and buying a cookie. And then a muffin. Then walking ot the other coffee shop and buying another muffin, and a biscotti. Thats ridiculous. I used to purge. I have a cavity that is rotting now because of it. Peices are falling off. And a pain thats indescribable will sting as soon as food touches it. There is a spot on my cheek I would accidently bite with my sharp jagged cavity infected tooth. The purging got so bad I couldn't taste anymore. My taste buds were so swollen. I stopped but have urges to do it again but dont want to medical question up my mouth. Recently in the las tweek or so I have been using laxatives. I dont know the thought behind it or even if it works but I know that I pooped allot in one day but doesnt food get absorbed when it goes all the way down there?
I continue to struggle with this wieght. Going from binging to eating nothing but a cup of oatmeal for the entire day. I want help. I want to be healthy and happy and proud of myself. But its scarry its like I want the food more....What the hell. I used to be able to say, im good. And throw it away. I am catching myself, like just yesterday. However I have problems thinking in the long term. If im going to change I need to think of it in long term because I didnt get that fat in one day.. And people on subway comercails and things dont loose it all in one day. They work hard for it. But I want to prove to everyone who ever teased me, or all the guys that looked so hot and skinny that would ask me if I was going to wear a speedo to sunsplash.
I want to prove to anyone that im not just lazy fat kid. I want to be happy again like I was when I was thinner....

I have been there, I used to think the four basic food groups were chocolate, grease, salt & sweet, I have learned to drink a lot of water as it fills me up, if you are able to walk, I highly reccomend it and swimming is also good and as the person said above, a good nutritionist helps, I myself belong to a gym. I have heard good and bad about by-pass surgery. Food is an addiction just like gambling, smoking drinking, etc. You have to want to help yourself and be strong about it, remember too if you get the munchies get some carrot sticks and celery sticks, they can help along with some water, they may not be that candy bar or cookies that you want but they will help to fill the void.
Good luck to all of you!

For more info on laxatives' effects, read the topic "laxatives, don't do it". It's all very clear there.

Its not only happiness but sucess too.

Shortly after loosing the weight I was dooing alot of other sucessfull things, like graduating highschool,(which I thought wasnt possible) I am going to college now, on my own and got a supervisor postion at the same job I have been working at for almost a 2 years now(this is my first job too) my employer had stated several times how i've changed and have become more confident. And I felt more confident, I used to be this big large quiet kid who let everyone walk all over him. I assimulate the fat kid with the quiet unsuccessfull un happy person I once was. Now that I am gaining weight I fear that I am becoming that person again.. The quiet shy person. Iam fearful this is affecting my leadership qualities I need to be successfull at my job. I am doing a low fat low cal diet. Ive heard its not as successfull as a low carb diet in the short terms but just as successfull after 6 months. Again tho I have a problem thinking in the long term. I want to be attractive and love myself. And I cant seem to love myself anymore when I look in the mirror. Everytime I do I look at my chin, and think oh my god, my chins getting bigger, im getting rounder in the face, then it moves to my breasts and I analyze how they sit, or how big they might be, and then my stomach and how because of the past weight loss there is saggy skin that I watch and check if its saggy or not. How my stomach looks, lmy legs. If these are good or bad strech marks...
Overall I try too look for the good and when im thinking in my head as soon as I leave the mirror I ttry to crack a smile and tell my self eric, your fine. People like you,
-i've never had a boyfriend, neither has anyone said they found me attractive. Even when I lost wieght. Girls tell me im cute all the time, handsome. But never sexy. I want to be attractive. I want guys to take a look at me. But lately i've gained a few and I find my self becoming very self concious now. Its when the compliments of how much i've lossed had stopped and wen I great people they dont say omg look how much weight you've lossed. When they dont say things like that I feel - - - nevermind
i am terrified of becoming the person I was. It makes me feel so ugly that even bigger people than me have gf's and bf's and I still dont have anyone. Not even an experience to go on.
-about purging, I would do it more if it didnt cause me to get sores on the cracks of my mouth that take forever to go away. And if I didnt have this cavity. Thats why I moved to laxitives. I have taken any since this weekend but I don't know if I will stop them. I'm not sur ehow they relate to weightloss but all I know is I read about it as an alternative to purging. Its sad, I should be able to take a stand. And I have. Today I had 2 servings(a cup) of oatmeal, minus the usual addton of butter around 5:00am, took my usual 30min bikeride to work. Had a nature valley honey and oat bar at 9:00am and a bean and chesse buritto from taco bell. I ordered 2 but gave one to my boss because I felt ful( I have been drinking alot of water before meals, at least a large glass full or a 20oz bottle before I eat and then I refill and drink while eating) then I had a coffee blended drink with whip cream at 3:00, I rationalized again thinking that I was too tired for history and wanted to be awake and alert for class...I couldve drank a low carb energy drink instead...
Other than that no food. I'll probubly eat some tuna with low fat mayo and some pretzels tonight.
Im trying to live each day as the first day of my diet... We will see, I need support so I think ill try this forum for it.. Im not sure where else to go to. I know I need help with this.

I just woke up - i'm so tired because yeaterday I walked miles for hours and got home very late in the evening. I couldn't sleep the whole night, so i've only slept a few hours and woke up hungry in the middle of the night. Half hour ago I got up and ate two breads (one with cheese and marmalade and the other, a toasted bread, with butter and marmalade) and a banana and drunk milk. I feel awful for it, so I will go to college on foot - about 3,7 miles. When this happens, I feel so bad that I make myself starve for the rest of the day and then just have dinner or else I go throw up. I don't wanna throw up again, I stopping it, so i'll not do it, i've convinced myself of that, at least today...

Going on laxatives will harm you equally. You can be healthy and beautiful or skinny, whatever, having a nice diet. I said you needed help and we are here to help and give support.
I know that sucess can come with a "new" figure, but sucess is something you build. Your sucess depends on your confidence, it's right. Getting help and passing throw a hard time as it is getting off a disease liks this with positive results is a great proof that you are sucessful and strong.
Of course I don't feel sucessful today, but I must try to get over this day and carry on on getting better. Even if my marks at college are not as great, i'll at least feel happy for me for having been strong.
But it's very hard, indeed. Yesterday I had to record a part of a short movie i'm in. Tha scene was at a vip kinda party, so I had to dress this super tight lycra dress, boots and shot mt legs. With that dress on, you could see my figure and everyone told me that I was in great shape and that it fitted me just like skin over skin. Then again, I has that duality of thoughts and wills: they say i'm great, so everything i've made had good results; but those things made me ill, and I want to be healthy, not ill. So,, what will I do? If I continue struggle against bulimia will i, in a few months, for example, fit in the same dress? And will the same people say the same things they said to me yesterday? What about if continue doing the same mistakes i've doing or even worse (like take laxatives, diuretics, etc, going a lot of steps backwards)? Will my weight stay the same? Will I get fatter or skinner?
I actually don't like myself when I look myself in the mirrow and never quite did. And that's still a problem for me. Shopping for clothes is one of my worse nightmares, because I never like what I try and end up depressed and never buying clothes. When I buy something it's common that I just dress it once and then think that it doesn't fit well and never use it again.

I was going good with my diet up until today. I only went three days on it until I started binging. I went to coffe shop to cofee shop. Bought up cookies and muffins and now im going to go purge... Then when I go home im downing the laxatives. I cant let my body absorb this. I fell so ashamed but as soon as I started I felt I was already too deep in the hole. Damn it. I can feel my self sweet as it metabolizes the sugars I ate. Ugh... I feel so doing it horrible. My tooth is going to hurt so bad. And I have a cold sore..... Why do I do this to myself. I want to be better but yet I still do this.

I did it, I started bleeding so im pausing. I feel there is more in there so I took a drink of water and plan on waiting a bit and doing it again. I dunno

I guess you should try not to do it at all. Only by not doing these stuff you'll get healthy again :\