i know this is a couple of years old, but i was wondering what the results were of the last medication you reported taking. i also took ativan, but only for two months, for a total of 30 pills. it gave me a numbing feeling. they told me it was highly addictive. i seem to have panic disorder and hadn't had a panic attack--although i had daily anxiety--until tonight. tonight i had my first panic attack in months and it felt horrible. before i took the ativan, which is only as needed to provide almost immediate relief, i tried taking a long term medication--celexa. however, just after one dose-after the very first pill i took--i had the most horrific panic attack i ever experienced. i was rushed to the emergency room. this is where ativan was given to me. i want something to take this away. just minutes ago, i had this terrible fear, uncontrollable shaking, shortness of breath, pale skin, dizziness. these are how my panic attacks usually feel. i need some help. i don't want to experience this again.i can't control it when it strikes, i feel totally helpless when this feeling hits me.