Hello! If Your Online, And Can See This, Please Respond!!!!! Posted: 03-16-06 00:55am
Hello. I don't know where to start. I
wonder if someone can tell me what could
be wrong. When I was around 3 or 4, I
started seeing an image of a woman. She
wears what appears to be a black wedding
dress. She has messy hair. She always
stands by my door when I do see her. She
only spoke to me once. She said, "shhh,
it's okay." i'm afraid of her still to
this day. I dream about her, and
sometimes I believe I can feel her
presence. After many years, I was talking
to my older brother. The topic came up,
even though we had never talked about it
before. He has seen her as well. Now i'm
not sure if she is real or imagined. We
established by our ages, I was the first
to start seeing her. Now days, I stay up
all night securing the windows and doors,
cause i'm afraid of intruders. After
doing so, I think, " man they got me now,
now i'm trapped, cause I nailed the
windows shut, they tricked me." then after
that, i'm afraid she's here. What is
wrong with me? I'm now afraid of doors
and can't sleep unless I can see them.
They can't be behind me. I hate windows
as well. Please can someone help me make
sense of this. I just need a logical
explaination. Thank you for your time.
|
firefly09
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Oct 2005 Posts: 45 Location: UK
Posted: 03-18-06 06:17am
I know how you feel. Ever since I was 17
I wake up and see demons either strangling
me or standing over me... Sometimes I
also see spiders crawling up the walls.
Becuase of this I wont leave my chair out
incase it invites them to comeand sit in
it .. Or any electrical appliances
plugged incase they switch them on.
|
aries98912
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Mar 2006 Posts: 11
Posted: 03-22-06 01:48am
Yes I have fears over seeing her in the
past. I sometimes feel her presence if
you know what I mean. I tell myself it's
not real, although I don't know. Doctors
call the symptoms of two siblings seeing
the same thing as, shared psychotic
disorder. One being the primary and the
other submissive. I would be the primary,
for I saw her first. The last time I saw
her was 6 years ago. I'm just afraid of
seeing her. I've nailed my windows shut
cause now i'm afraid someone will break
in, but then I think someone has tricked
me or made me do it, so then I think this
is funny now this is how I die. Sometimes
I hear a voice call my name. I think
everyone has that happen from time to
time. That's always a male voice. Last
week, someone asked if they could come in
the bathroom. I assumed it was my niece
or her mother. I felt the door touch my
arm, pushed it shut, and said no. When I
came out I told them next time to just
wait. They looked confused, cause no one
came by the door. I think this is the
brains way of keeping it functioning
correctly, but who knows? Everytime I
heard the voice I was always wide awake
walking around. There were times I saw
the woman and I was just waking up and
others I was fully awake. I do suffer
from severe anxiety and depression. Maybe
this is my brains way of coping. I was
once put on risperadal, which I stopped
using. I don't even know why I was on it.
I refuse to take meds without proof. Now
if they did an mri and showed me I had an
abnormal brain, sure I would believe them.
When you don't even know why your on
risperadal and what it's for, why keep
taking them? So I haven't taken that med
in years. Anyways, thank you for
replying. Hope everything is well with
you.
|
RameshV
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Mar 2006 Posts: 11 Location: India
Take Help Immediately Posted: 03-22-06 07:05am
Your description clearly "suggests" that
you are having hallucinations - auditory
and visual also.
You must go to a psychiatrist immediately
and take help.
Please remember - no one in the world can
prove that you have any mental illness to
you through mri or any other test.
Medical science has not advanced to that
stage yet regarding mental illness.
It is nothing wrong to go to a doctor and
get help - he will decide. In all the
mental illnesses , you must remember the
person concerned thinks he is normal.
I too thought so , until I recovered from
bipolar disorder. And I expericed
hallucinations as you are.
|
LifeIsButADream
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Mar 2006 Posts: 5 Location: Dallas
Posted: 03-28-06 17:18pm
I'm curious if you have a certain
religious affiliation? Would you mind
commenting on that?
|
aries98912
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 15 Mar 2006 Posts: 11
Posted: 03-28-06 19:35pm
No I don't mind commenting. I was raised
a baptist, and still remain to this day.
I believe there is such things as demons,
cause the bible clearly states that, but
the bible also clearly states that all
signs and such have passed away. Not to
say a person couldn't come in contact with
a demon or even see one. I don't know
what to say exactly about what I saw. I'm
not superstitious about such things if
that's what your looking for. Anyways,
thanks for talking with me. I really
appreciate it.
|
RameshV
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Mar 2006 Posts: 11 Location: India
Posted: 04-06-06 03:36am
I am in a self help group for mentally ill
. I have seen many people where the
illness many times gets mixed up with the
religious beliefs , specially when the
religious affiliation is strong. It is
common , since religion has got very
important influence on us from childhood.
We go to church before we go to school
!.
But do not mix up disease with religion.
People with bipolar or schizophrenia often
get delusions of religious nature.
Hallucinations also spring forth from our
subconscious only. Hence it is better to
consider if it is an illness if there is
no joy in what you are experiencing. If
there is joy , peace in what your are
experiencing , then it is religious ,
otherwise it is related to illness.
I am very religious myself from childhood
and suffered with bipolar disorder and had
delusions of religious nature too ..Hence
trying to share my experience. Do not
mind if you feel otherwise.
