Sarah, I totally understand what you must be going through. First, its more of a control thing. Eating and cutting are things you can control. With that said, be the bigger person and do not allow yourself to hurt you. There are so many things beyond our control. Feeling out of control is why we become so depressed and do the "weird stuff" we sometimes do.Not sure how old you are, I take it you are still in school and living at home. You can not control the things your bf does, but you can be there for emotional support. In your title for this subject, you wrote god help....With that said, I can honestly tell you from 48 years of being a living miracle myself. I have asked the lord so many times for so many blessings and he has yet to fail me. Sometimes it may not be the answer you want to hear. You are young and have your entire life ahead of you. You choose to be a winner and fight and have the best life you could possibly have, or you can choose to give up, let it all go to hell in a hand basket....In the long run, its your choice. I kinda have a gut feeling your a fighter like me. Hang in there girlfriend. I hope I have helped you feel some better! Can always send me private email!

Thanx so much for the reply I had no idea what to do I felt as if I were falling in a huge hole and kept falling. Ive been really depressed lately and feel the way I felt on my last post alot more often. Fairygod mother who ever you are thanxs and I hope to keep in touch. Who knows I might need your advice again.

Oh I don't know what to tell you but I am sorry about what is happening to you and that I hope you will get better I will pray for you...
Kayla~i hope you get better!!!

Thanks for replying it makes me feel better even know I dont know you it makes me feel like someone cares at least I just been feeling so horribly lately I just want to curl up in a ball and die
sarah