Of course there is hope; there is always hope. I'm a bulimic (and have been for about 4 years or so), but some time ago I decided to go to the doctor by myself - nobody told me, I got the strengh because I wanted to stop.



i know what it feels like to stop and feel "normal" again. That's why I decided to go to the doctor. Do the same, in first place. I know these doctors are very expensive, but search at colleges - sometimes, in health and medicine school they work with the general public too. Normally, it's not so expensive and it's as good as going to a fancy clinic or so.



now... Don't feel guilty if you over eat one day or something like this. It's ok, it's normal if it happens. And if it does happen, don't throw up next. This maybe your biggest challenge and one of the hardest - if you eat or drink too much (or if you think you did), don't waste a binge next. Be strong - you can do it.
Now, I don't throw up very single day. I still do it, it's true, but it's not so regular. If can control myself (one of my problems is voracity attaks), you can control yourself too!
You can, for example, give yourself a deadline (if you think that having a deadline is like having a goal and if works better with you this way). For example, try to eat healthy and not throwing up for 3 consecutive days. What do you think? :)



as I said, I haven't been a bulimic for as long as you have, but I know it's always time to get back and cure ourselves! Believe me, it's possible. Be strong!

If you want to talk to me again, you can't send me a private message, ok? :) believe.

Thanks so much for response and optimism. I will surely try to set some more realistic goals for myself. Thanks for the advice about seeking some help at a school or university for a lower cost. I'll also check that out. Thanks again!

Ok. Tell me something then :) what if we did this together? What do you think?
Let me know =)

I'm in. Where do we start?

Let's do it like this for a try: no throwing up and trying to eat as healthy (no need to count calories, no need to be upset if we overeat - just trying to go back to normal eating in babysteps) from tomorrow, friday (from the minute we wake up), until sunday (until we go to sleep).
Then, on monday, we'll share our weekend, ok?
And during these days we can speak to each other if we think of bad things or feel bad about ourselves, ok?

Do you think this is ok? :)

Sounds good. I'm starting today then, to begin to at least control the urge to binge as many times as I typically do. Let me know how the weekend goes for you. Good luck!

Well, today I did quite exceed myself on eating or at least I felt that. I had to go to college early, but I had breakfast before going there. When I was there for about an hour (about 2 hours after having my breakfast), I ate a slice of chocolate salame... Well... I guess i'll not die for that, even because the rest of the day was quite calm.

I finally managed to be with my best friend today! We hadn't seen each other for months :s

and a new thing: I had lunch! =x normally, when i'm at college - specially when I feel that I overeat - I skip meals. It's normal for me to only have breakfast (sometimes a poor one, like a non-fat yoghurt or an apple) and then come home late and have dinner... And i'd usually throw up after eating salame =x

how has your friday been? ***** :)

Hey! Woohoo I usually throw up once a day, so throwing up 0 times is great. I call them zero days. Three times ive had 2 zero days in a row. Yesterday was a zero day. Im hoping for my first 3, maybe even 4 zero days in a row! Anyway, I had the best day yesterday. This was my food diary for the day.

Breakfast
100g of nuts.

Lunch
400g of grapes

dinner
warm chicken salad with lots of lettuce, lil bit of mango, lil bit of warm chicken and tomato

how many calories in that yo?
I know its bad to think of calories. But im interested..

I don't know how many cals are in there, but, if you got that into your tummy and you didn't throw up, it's great!!! Thanks for joining us!


Yesterday it wasn't one of my best days. I feel strange because i«m eating more than I used to (because last year I was a bulimic and I just didn't eat for the whole day - then it turned the other way around and I started over eating. Now I managed to control overeating but I feel strange because I never ate when I was at school, only had dinner, basically).

I felt bad yesterday because one friend of mine gave me a piece of cake and I ate it.

But, well... When I used to throw up and overeat (both) I gained weight - I passer from about 122 to 127.6! And I couldn't understand why, if I was throwing up.

What was going on and what can happen is that, by throwing up, your body reacts in the opposite way - instead of losing those cals you've eaten, it starts to keep as many cals as it can. So that was the explanation for my weight gain.


Let's keep an weblog together? I already have one weblog that I don't used a lot now and not many people visit. We can use that one instead of creating a new -->
tell me something, girl!


As for your meals yesterday, I can see that you are really trying to get healthy ;) but you can eat a bit more. Try to keep with you always one of those little packages of cookies, that carrie about 6. And eat half of them in mid morning and half in the mid afternoon. ;) you won't get fat for eating them, it's just the opposite - you'll be giving fuel to you car so it can keep working.


Yesterday i've eaten:
8 am - 1 banana
11 am - 6 whole cereal (i guess that's the name) cookies
lunch (12:00) - 1 bread with ham and 1 slice of cake
7 pm - 1 orange, 1 little apple and 1 bread with cheese and marmalade
dinner (9 pm) - tomato rice and codfish

a lot more that you, lol =x (:

You may try pranayam which is set of breathing techniques that can really cure anything including your problem. Remember how much or how early your illness dies by doing pranayam depends on how much faith you have on it. Even if you have no faith but do it for at least 2 weeks, you;ll start seeing the result and faith will start gradually hence.

Well, the first two days of the weekend were good. I threw up two or three times--which is an improvement for me. Sunday and monday were pretty bad, meaning, I didn't even keep track of what I ate or how many times I threw up. Probably somewhere between six to eight times. The past couple of days were better because my boyfriend was visiting. When I eat and don't plan to binge, I don't usually count calories. I try to eat healthful foods, paying more attention to the levels of fats. My biggest problem is over eating in general. Even foods that I plan to keep down end up coming back up if I eat too much. I often don't realize i've eaten too much for comfort until it's too late though. It's tough. I wish I could control myself.

It's ok...
You've tryed and you've accomplished part of the goals, haven't you? ;) do be to hard on yourself. Now, do you wanna try it again for a few days? :)
these last days for me haven't been so good too, i'm always jumping to the weight scale and I always think i'm overeating.
But no, i've not thrown up... 17 zero days, now. =x

be strong, you will control yourself. It's gonna be very, very difficult, but you'll manage to do that in some sort of way. And I - and the other people too - will be here to help you.

If you feel bad or something, come here and write something or go do something that distracts you! ***********

Today i'm feeling very bad.. I started throwing up again after 17 days without doing it.
As I woke up very early for a saturday, I first ate a banana for breakfast. But I was so hungry that about one hour and a half later I had a bread and cheese and a cup of milk and a chocolate almond. I felt bad for it, so I went to the toilet and started vomiting. As quick as I got conscious of what I was doing, I stopped doing it and went to my room and started cleaning it. :(
then, by 2 pm I had lunch together with my parents, and now, at 6:30, I has an apple, 3 saltines and a slice of cheese... :(

Hey voodoo. 17 days is so good babe. You should be so proud of yourself. 17 days ...... 17 days! Thats like, over 8 sets of 2 days. I say that cause the longest I have lastest is 2 days.

So congratulations!!

Is 17 days good for you? Personally I think 17 days is good for anyone but yeah. Uno how you said that you woke up and were really hungry so you binged? And then you ate not a lot during the rest of the day? You dont want to wake up the next day and be so hungry and have that cycle, so aas hard as it is, try and eat something that will help slightly fill that hunger. What do you think? Good luck sweet.

Silver roda.... Well done on your achievement. I think its great your challenging your thoughts and making progress. I think to help you maybe you could be more concious of what you eat.. You say that you dont realise youve eaten too much until its too late right? Try what I do. I feel like I eat all the time lol but its really small meals. Like every 2.5 or 3 hours, ill have something, even if its just a banana. Or sometimes if im more hungry, ill have a banana, then half an hour later have some raw nuts. It helps because you dont feel like your eating too much all at once but you still arent hungry and dont feel the need to binge. Do you think that could help?

Okay and now its time to hear about my weekend and stuff! Okay its sunday 5:30pm now.... Ive had 2 zero days in a row. The 4th time ever this has happened, im quite chuffed. Anyway. On friday I knew it was going to be zero cause I had school till 3.30, and then had to go to work at 4.30, and I wasnt going to waste my time by eating and then feeling bad etc. So friday was set. I found it really easy actually and felt great cause I didnt eat too much. Saturday was yesterday, a bit more challenging cause I had nothing planned. But I cleaned my room and went to the gym and did homework, so I felt great and then for dinner I made a really nice salad with chicken and mango and stuff. It was great. So 2 zero days for me. Im doubting myself right now and I think in about 20 mins I will be gorging on chocolate, but hey, I made 2 days.... And monday was a zero day too. Wooooohooooooooo. 3/7 days this week were 0 days!! Yay!

Good luck babesssss xx

well, 17 days were an historic mark, I guess! Now i've had 6 zero days. Today was not one, but I threw up today because I got nauseas because of the smells of many perfumes mixed together after eating (i went to the movies and, as me and my boyfriend had time, we ate an icecream - häagen-dazz - and then we went for a walk in the shopping. That was when I felt sick and had to do it. I felt a lot better after it..). Was today a zero day, even with this? If I hadn't done it, it'd have been my seventh zero day in a row!
I had to spend many hours wihtout eating, because I wanted to feel hunger again. When I overate, I couldn't feel hunger! Now, I know when I am hungry and when I am not...

But thanks for your support, it's most precious.

Time for me to tell how my weekend has been. Today, me and my honey bunny make 21 months together. =) he has been most helpful and understandind and gives me support as nobody else does. I also want to get out of bulimia for him, he deserves the best.
So, today we went to the movies, as I said, I we saw ice age 2. I really enjoyed it ^^
yesterday, we both stayed at home. I studied a bit, read some stuff to college and then watched tv until dinner time ("pirates of caribbean").

Last wednesday I went to the psychiatrist and to the nutricionist, and we established some goals for some: keep the "breaks" between meals, start having lunch (i generally skip it) and only weight myself once a week. I'm going back there in may, 10th.

Hope I can do this, really hope...

Good luch for you too :)