Well I haven't been on this site since november I think...At that time I was only 18 weeks pregnant. Now i'm babyless. Well in december at my 20 weeks I found out that my baby's heart had stop (silent miscarriage). The doctor says isnt in the genres it just bad luck. The baby was gonna be a liitle girl I even had her name pick out precious. I remember the first time I felt her kick well that what I think I felt it.
So just before chirstmas I had the baby taken out of me. It was the worse thing, I was so depressed but I didn't want my family to know but i've been thro there just use it to gossip. So I had to spend the whole chirstmas holding in my feelings in, pretending to be happy all the time. I guess it got too much for me because for the whole january I just stayed at home I never left my room. I just sat there everyday, hardlly ate, only really speaking to my boyfriend, tho I never let on how depressed I was because I didnt want him to worry. He never really showed how he felted but I know it hurt him deeply. He wanted to be a father more than anything.
The worse thing now is that our relationship is breaking down....Which I think is just making my depression worse. I'm now starting getting this terrible pains in my chest and my chest feels heavy. The pain gets worse when I breathe deeply. I never feel like eating, as it makes me feel sick, I have to force the food down.
So that my life over the past 3 months