I have been worried sick about some of my risky behaviour as of late, and one of my biggest concerns is contracting hiv. I would like to mention at this point that I have been in for a pap test, hiv testing and std testing. I havent recieved my results yet, but I am terrified to find out if there is actually anything to stress about.

I want to start out by saying that I have always been very careful with new partners, and always use condoms. In the past few months I have started dosing ecstacy about once every 1 or 2 weeks, I dont know if this has any significance as far as contracting hiv is concerned, but it certainly impairs my judgement. This is a large reason why I am quitting, as well as overall concern for my own well being. The first instance was with a man I had met at a bar, we had engaged in vaginal sex and the condom broke, and he had unknowingly ejaculated in me. I know nothing about this man, his sexual history or otherwise. He has assured me he is regularily tested and is clean (how I hope thats true!). The most recent guy I slept with has admitted to me that he has had a promiscuous past, he had 56 partners before me, however, he assures me as well that he has been tested and is clean. We engaged in vaginal sex twice without a condom, however he pulled out before ejaculating both times. I feel stupid and terrible for my lack of judgement in these situations and I am trying desperately to clean up my act. Ive just been living with this constant rock in my chest knowing these men could have very well been infected with hiv, if not some other std's. I dont seem to have any sort of weird symptoms so im feeling somewhat confident....But what are my chances of contracting hiv from these guys!!??

Any input would be so greatly appreciated.