But i'm considering other employment options.

It's not that I don't like it here or anything like that. Yes, it's annoying sometimes and, yes, I do despise working saturday and sunday every week (which won't be for long, I hope). But i've been thinking a lot lately about what's happening this year.

A lot's changing between now and the end of the year, and I just can't come to terms with spending the first 2-3 years of my child's life working nights and weekends. Or any of his/her life, for that matter. I was on my way to work last sunday, it was a beautiful day, and there were some people with their kids at the soccer field down the street from our house. And all I could think was, "i cant do that." I know it'll be a while before the kid's kicking soccer balls, but that's not the point. The point is... I'll be married. We'll have a child. And because john works normal people's hours, nights and weekends will be the time that the three of us will have together. Do I want to work through that? Not really.

I really want to get into book editing, and i've been trying to find a company that freelances or allows telecommuting. I have seen a couple of things, but they are in no way paying anywhere near what I make here. It's all part-time stuff. But I think that, if I could at least get something that I want, I can always get another from-home job like data entry or something to supplement.

I totally want to be an at-home mom, but john's income (while not bad or anything) just can't support that. Maybe this is the next best thing. I dont' know. Am I crazy?