I want to be able to post my story without being criticized for my behavior. So, please, if you're going to be an fool, please do not reply. I would like some honest responses, thank you.

Last year (i know, so long ago), I had unprotected anal sex, without much force and there was no blood contact. That was in may, and over the course of the summer I started getting super paranoid about it, even though I was told the person was negative. My lymphnodes were swollen, and I had chronic diarrhea. At the same time, however, I had started vegetarianism and thought that might be the cause.

In 2004, I participated in oral sex, and without telling me, the person ejaculated in my mouth. I had started thinking about that incident last year, around sept. Or oct.

I haven't gotten tested yet because i'm so afraid of what the results might be. However, i'm planning on it next week. I just want to know the chances of me being infected. When I gave oral sex, it was in october of 2004, and in june 2005 is when I started being paranoid about my unprotected encounter. Like I said, my neck glands have been swollen since june 2005, and I had chronic diarrhea. I have diarrhea still, but it's usually only when I eat something greasy, etc. Which is what leads me to think it was/is because i'm a vegetarian. Also, beginning in january of this year (2006), I started getting sore throats all the time. Eventually, they developed into throat infections, and I got two over the course of 27 days. What exactly are my chances of being positive?

Please don't respond with just "go get tested, it's past the 3-6 month mark!" I understand that, and I plan on goign next week unless I chicken out (which is possible), but i'd also ike some honest and kind advice on my situation. Thank you so much in advance.

-anonymous in nj