I get worried to about the way that people look at me. I think its just anxiety you need to start believing in yourself as a person. Im not too sure how you might do this because im kinda stuck on that at the moment.

You say your feeling depressed yet you seem to have some really good things going for you at the moment you need to hold onto that. Its easy at our age to feel down because of worrying about things. Our minds our changing so fast and we change so quickly I wouldnt be too worried about whats going on at the moment it seems like u are having a hard time at the moment but I can see a really positive future for you.

You seem to have a really clear idea as to what you want to do with your life something I have never been clear on and ur in a stable relationship. My last one broke up after a week and it was really hurtful recently the way we broke up. This problem about your boyfriend and your mate its a bit tricky and I have to be honest and say I havent been in this situation before and its hard to comment on the little information you have given me. I think you can still be close to both of them but you need to try and make sure that they don't come to loggerheads. If I was u I would have a word with your bf and see if he is willing to give to give it a shot with this girl if you say it is important to you. Im not really sure how he would react as I dont know him but if I was him I wouldnt see it as that bigger of a deal. If he cares about you as much as you say he does then he will at least not be nasty about her to you. It is likely that he was just being especially nasty about her because you two fell out and im sure that if you make it clear that you two are going to be friends he will lay off being mean. Your in the lucky position of at least having one of them if it does go wrong and if it does you need to make the decision as to who you want to be with.

Write back telling me why you think you are being "moody all the time" and what you think is good in your life at the moment

take care and good luck

write back

gavin

Well, I have my good days & bad days, like everyone I suppose. I'm soo mean to my mom & I feel very bad for it, but I don't know what to do about it because it just comes out. See, my mom & step dad are going through a divorce, but he's the only father i've ever known, and it's been really hard on my family. Plus, I don't get to see my brothers to much anymore & i'm very close to all of them. I know that could be part of my problem right there. I'm on some medication right now for headaches, but also for a depression medicine, but it doesn't work. Doctors just always throw some medicine at you and thats it.

I never feel good either. I have headaches all the time, sore throat, very weak..I feel like i'm falling apart. It gets sooo annoying and no one really understands why I don't feel good. I'm always tired and thats screwing things up.

I go to a academy for school and its getting really hard for me, but it prepares you for college. I start college courses in the fall, while i'm still in high school. So, thats been stressful for me also. All these colleges are after me and I just don't know which one to go to. Or heck I don't even know what I want to go to college for.

Anyways, for the whole bf thing..I haven't came to reality that him and I have been together this long. I'm used to the few week relationships, and to be honest I don't even know if I like the relationship. If that makes since. I feel like I need to try to date other people but then again I love my bf. I'm probably confusing you, i'm sorry. We argue a lot but that is mostly my fault I guess, but then again he complains to me a lot and it gets on my nerves.

When I said I was close to both of them, I meant my bf and his best friend. All of us are really close friends. His best friend is like my big brother, ya kno? My 'best friend' I don't even feel as close to as I used to. Plus, a lot of guys think i'm pretty and that makes him mad. Lol sorry for rambling on...

Talk to ya soon!

Sorry if ur there watching this is a very quick reply ill do longer one in a sec

how long have u been taking the medication and which one is it?

It took a few weeks for my antidepressants to kick in before maybe you havent realised them kicking in or maybe u need to give them a chance

Dont worry im one of these guys who prefer girl mates to lad mates so im used to rambling lol :p

you maybe need to take some time out and think about things write stuff down where u thinking ur relationships are headed now. Maybe ur ex best friend isnt worth the hastle then! U need to think will u need her if ur thinking of dumping this bf (i know its selfish but come on thats the way our minds work anyway!)

this feeling weak thing do u suffer from anxiety like me? If ur not sure what the symptoms are google it im sure it'll help :d I always feel really weak and ill but maybe its just growing? I grow rlly quickly lol im 6" 3 now and still growing so that might be what the problem is for you maybe adding more fruit too ur diet. Maybe some of those nonsense drinks like yakult they seem to work on the adverts!!!!

Where do u see urself in a weeks time>?
A months time>?
A years time>?

My medicine that i'm on is omgsh I don't even know, lol, pamalor or something like that I think? I was on it when I was 13, depressed from my baby brother dying, and I was like hyperchild, getting trouble all the time, so my parents took me off of it and I got on topomax or something like that. But, that made me really sick..So I tried one more medicine and they put me back on pamalor, and it does nothing for me like it used to! It does help headaches though!

As for the fruit thing, I started that on tuesday, so maybe that will help me! I really hope so, i'm eating 6 servings of fruits/veggies a day..Like this diet thing told me to! I don't need to go on a diet, i'm not over weight, but I really don't eat the right types of foods. Does that help you?!

What I do is write letters to people, but really don't always give it to them. I do every once in awhile to let out my feelings. It helps me though, and I write in a diary every once in awhile, but I don't always have time, ya know. Thats just how life works out.

My bf & I got into another argument last night omgsh, I just about lost it. We argued for over 2 hrs, and I finally just hung up on him, and his mom called me back saying some crap that he needed to get his 'rest' cause he was sick. Now today he's trying to suck all up to me and its getting so old. All's I told him was that I needed some time to think about things, and thats all it took for him to fly off about everything! He didn't even let me get out what I needed to think about. Now he has one of his friends calling me to talk to me about my problems, I understand he is worried about me, but I don't even know this guy and he's like 23 yrs old. Haha here goes this rambling thing!!

Anyways, pm me if you want with the reply to this so we dont have to keep talking on here!

Kayla

Sure things its just easier because I can refer directly to your last post.

Im going to copy your last message into pm so I can read while I write ok