Dil took a step back last night when they could not extubate him after a collapsed lung (pneumothorax) - he is still intubated now. He has moved back to the critical care neonatal intensive care unit as a ct scan diagnosed a grade 3 (iii) intraventricular hemorrhage. He also had two seizures in the night, I would have given anything to see him out of pain.
This morning they tried extubating him and failed, he also made little response to painful stimulation. The grade of hemorrhage and tests the next day (today) show that he could be either severely or mildly disabled... These could include blindness, deafness, loss of movement, slow speech, behavioural problems etc. There is a 70% chance he will have some kind of disability only time will tell. I'm in shock, I am finding it very difficult to be at the hospital with him even though I know I should be. I keep bursting into tears at a nappy advert on tv or seeing a baby or pregnant lady as I just want dil to be ok.
Sorry for venting it all here - I am so deeply shocked I dont think it has properly hit me yet. Thanks, carrie