I am 25 years old I am 5 foot 7 and 8 stone I am sick every day. I have been bulimic for about 13 years now. I know am not fat am scared of putting on weight. I wish I had boobs I am so flat chested. It all started being called fat and that I was not very good in any of my sujects at school. I feel alone and a failure. I hid the fact I had a ed for years my sister would hear me in the bathroom. Then we would aurgue and she would shout it out I would say she was being stupid. I would hide behide my smile it was all an act. Then I went out with a lad that put me down all the time then my brother died and every little thing that happened after that was like the end of the world I hated my self. I feel that nobody loves me and am depressed all the time. I would go out every weekend on the drink that made things worse as it made me more depressed. Then I meet my lovely husband in 1999 and got married 2004 of course my eatting just stayed the same as its a habit and I cant get out of it its so hard. I am wanting kids now but only have periods every couple of month. Maybe if I got pregnant I would stop beeing sick.

Hope your drama level goes ok and stick in at collage. Good luck x

Thanx laney - hope you gt better soon x

Knew someone who was bolemic

all I know is that he destroyed his body and his muscles wared away cos he lost so much weight

it discolours teeth and erodes them

sorry I couldnt be more help

gl with the performance

So... Can anyone tell me what sparked off their bulimia?

Does anyone feel pressured by all the media and celebrities trying to stay thin? Or the constant diet plans sprawled across magazines?

Err, not sure if it will be much use to you given i'm a bloke.

I started making myself since I was 14, yup, the age were most people are there most vulnarble, worried about their apperance and what others may think of them.

I became isolated and depressed at school and ate, alot.. Eating made me feel better but quite soon I felt guilty so I started throwing up. So, i've been doing that for 4 years (with periods of stability where I stopped followed by a re-lapse- I had stopped in feb05 and started again on the 21st of dec 05).

In the four years i've done this people have said i've lost weight, I keep doing it, and my folks don't know and they comment on what I eat and call me fat (i know its jokingly) but when that happens I binge and throw up.

If you want to link this to bullemia, think of a time where you have felt isolated and not in control, imagine watching yourself from above (as if an outerbody experience) doing something you don't want to do but can't stop it).

Also, if you've drank whiskey/vodka/40% drink and it burned you throat, thats the feeling you have in your throat after doing it.

Rrr that is really sad for you. I hope you get better. X

thanx for all your help :)

I know this isn't anything to be excited about but I have just recently started to loose alot of excess weight and I believe I might be getting very sick today I am going to my dr's and I am worried. I cannot keep and fliuds down not even sips of water. I was doing coke and that I think started my trip to where and how I feel everyday. Ai have mixed emotions about being bullemic and I am not really sure if I want help right now. When you take a pretty but overweight 24 yr. Old woman and now she is loosing weight and looking even better its hard to say its a bad thing...... I am confused.... I don't even eat and I am puxing and it burns and feel's really bad but I look good... I don't know what to do.!!!