Hi gavin :d

if you want , I have some free time to be able to talk with you...***

Me too! You can talk to me anytime, I am here pretty much every day, because I hate my job so this is how I spend my time at work. Haha

Gavin,

you may write me anytime if you'd like. I think i've been through it all at 16!

Wow im rlly touched that you all care maybe u could help me get back my confidence as I lost it all when I got depressed... My dad used to hit me then my mum and dad got divorced then my mum got depressed and tried to kill herself...Then later I got depressed because school was too hard and I started too feel like life wasnt worth living after all that and since that I have found out my dad has cheated on my mum and now has a 23 yr old daughter that we never knew about...

Its rlly destroyed my confidence and I got get rlly anxious around people and have recently resorted to addictions like smoking and weed and gambling could rlly do with some advice for getting my head back on track

thx very much that u all care xxxx

Hey gavin! :)

you can write me a msg on here anytime you'd like! I'd love to talk to you and try to help as much as I can!

Kayla

Im about to reply to ur topic thx for replying

hello again **

i'm happy that even the simple presence of all of us makes you feel in any way a biiiit better... :)

i think that probably confidence will eventualy come from the outside in tiny bits, but the real confidence, the one that never fails when the outside reality can't help us or deceives us (friends,girlfriend, money, job,etc.), is the one that will come to you eventually, it will be a inner confidence, generated firstly by your understanding that other people like you, but then you will no longer need that kind of reassurance...

I think your problems may really well relate to this lack of trust, drugs of any kind have been known for use for fulfilling an empty hole inside of one's mind/heart (each people has its hole and finds it own band aid... My bandaid is food and books...The first is bad, the last not so bad :p lolo )

perhaps if you find a very true to yourself and healthy way of filling in your hole you won't be in need to find artifical / outside things to end your inner needs...

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I replied to the other convo btw have u seen it yt?

Im going to africa when I was really ill and after I tried to kill myself 3 times I spent a long time thinking about what I was talking about in the other conversation that I wanted to change the world that I was born into that even tho I didnt feel like living myself I was in the position to give people the chance to live because I was born into a middle class family and I am bright so thats whats kept me alive thats what im moving forward to im just not sure if ill make it there (not being dramatic) but life is feeling pretty pointless at the moment