I haven't been here in over a week so I haven't deleted anything, so nothing should really be deleted. Maybe they're far down the list on a next page or something.

Oh my gosh---lil I was so worried about you. Are you okay. I asked about you the other day--if anyone had heard from you. Im glad youre back.

I"m fine, thanks. Someone let me know you were asking. Just some home stuff going on and been very busy starting to look for work and stuff and with the moms and tots group we go to. How are things on your end?? Anything positive yet>?

No--i gave up. It is so hard for me to get around and they are just wasting my time. I mean I have to lay down in the back of my van to go anywhere. Cant sit up---gets worse all the time. And when I lay---bad pressure in my back on both sides now.

I had a dream about 3 months ago, .God showed me something will happen then I will go to the hospital. None of these other girls who this has happened to--knew before the time comes--so I guess I am not alone.


I will be okay--do not worry. .God is in control anyway--no matter what I want. He is in control. .He will not let me down. I have tried to help myself--and that is all .He expects of me. He will do the rest. My husband is not so spiritual--and he said "maybe you are expecting confirmation from man--this is .Gods and will not give you that--it is .His glory." .God says "my glory I give to no man" he does not share .His glory--if it is .God--.He wants no appearance of man--so they can glory in their accomplishments. Do you know what I mean? And .Dr's with their .God complex already--i can totally understand it.


Love always

me

Hi lil_blaze! Couldn't you get your old job back? Weren't you just on maternity leave, I thought you had a year off? Hope things are going better for you and you b/f. You sound really down, of course I could be wrong, feel free to talk to us. We are here for you!